- Date posted
- 1y
Ocd and homesickness
I have been feeling horrible lately. It is my first year at uni and it is also mid terms season. But my therapist says that the stress of that and just everything right now has caused my ocd to skyrocket. I have been feeling the worst I have ever felt in so long. But today was a little bit easier. The anxiety had gone down a bit but I was just left with this deep homesickness. Ever since I got here I think it has just felt like summer camp and everything will go back to normal. I think it is just finally hitting me and it hurts a lot, and is so scary too. I am not sure if I am ready for my life to change like this. Don’t get me wrong I love it here. It is so beautiful and it is like a little city. I am working towards my dreams and I have such good friends. But sometimes it just feels like one day after another. I miss my hometown. And my friends and family. I miss them so much. I miss being around people that know and love me. It feels so jarring and lonely here. Which is weird because my best friend is here with me and so is a couple of my other friends. But idk. My other friend group felt like a family. We r a family. I miss being around them and being somewhere familiar, even though I have a couple of my friends here. I want to feel that comfort of being somewhere familiar. Of knowing my parents are somewhere in the house and I can get a hug from my mom or dad anytime. I know it could be worse. I see my other friends when I can! I live close to home as well I can literally come home every weekend. I don’t know why it feels so horrible to be here right now. Obviously this has been effecting my mental health and ocd. I just feel depressed and I don’t know what to do about it. I don’t even know how to put it into words it just feels so horribly lonely.