Username: tannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

Urgent - feeling suicidal

I could really do with some support. I'm feeling absolutely broken and just want to take heaps of pills to get rid of the pain I have BPD so any triggers struggle with my emotional regulation My ocd has been alot recently and my partner is feeling suffocated by me ,he is miserable and today he woke up and said I don't want to give you mixed signals when I asked if I'm allowed to hug him I have a debilitating anxiety disorder so this has triggered me in so many ways. What am I supposed to do with this? He's at work till 12 at night. I'm in home in my bed now stop crying feeling sick and don't know whats going on I'm struggling because to feel like the love of your life can't handle a big part of me feels like the worst thing in the world

Username: llamajammallamajamma

Date posted: 1y ago

please don’t do anything, you will get through this🩷 you are so valuable and important

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

Can you see the post ??

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

Can you send what I said asap

Username: BeevsBeevs

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Getting rid of the pain that way will only cause more pain to those you love and those who care about you, trust me. I was in a "relationship" and the person ending ripping me to shreds with words after my rocd had caused one too many "break ups". It hurt me, really did. Because she was the one I first ever opened up to about my POCD. But I realized that sometimes people change and that God has someone who's truly meant for me. Just remember to breathe and ride the wave of anxiety. That wave will come down, I promise. If you have a therapist reach out to them and ask what the next steps should be and possibly how you can talk with your bf about how you're feeling. 💚 I promise that it does get better. We just have to keep working and taking things day by day.

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi unfortunately nocd has deleted my post which has made me even worse and just more ill. I don't get why they've done. This. As I wanted to read back what I wrote. Now it's not there my OCD is convincing me of all sorts. I'm trying to get in contact with someone from nocd to get my post info sent to me. I don't supose you can recall most of it ? I never spoke bad about my partner at all did I?!! x

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

@beevs

Username: BeevsBeevs

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@tannyt I still see the post?

Username: OCDisHellOCDisHell

Date posted: 1y ago

I've been where you are right now, in a dark place. When I was 12 years old I thought suicide was the answer to my mental health problems. That was 27 years ago and I'm so glad I didn't act on my thoughts. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It does get better, you will get better, I promise you that. It can be alot for loved ones to handle because they don't think the same way we do, so their minds get exhausted from the illogical thoughts/compulsions we do. I've come to understand how stressful the disorder can be on others trying to support us. Keep working towards bettering your mental well being.

Username: OCDisHellOCDisHell

Date posted: 1y ago

God bless

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

OCDisHell I'm worse now because nocd has deleted my post now my OCD is convincing me of more. Can you please recall to me and confirm I never said anything bad regarding my partner ?!!!

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

@nocd please!!!

Username: tannyttannyt

Date posted: 1y ago

Nocd has made me ill and deleted it

Username: c444tmommy

Date posted: 4y ago

TW// SUICIDE im gonna be really honest. i am not doing good. this is the worst ocd theme i have ever had. it feels SO real to me. i look at my self in the mirror and mourn the happy girl i used to be before december of 2019 when my ocd first hit. the fact that i will never be the same scares me and haunts me more than anyone can understand. everyday gets harder and harder no matter how much progress i make. i cant afford therapy right now but i need it so badly. i am genuinely in so much pain. i feel so guilty, and ashamed, and sad all the time. i cant focus on school work or anything anymore. i have had thoughts about suicide because i just want some relief. it hurts so much. i love my boyfriend beyond belief. it makes me so angry that ocd would attach to and manipulate something so pure and beautiful to me.

Relationship OCD

Username: catattak

Date posted: 4y ago

Tw: suicide but please help if you can . . . . . . Today I was accidentally exposed to something waaaaay too high up my hierarchy and I cant handle it. I'm at the point of planning suicide. I've come up with a new plan and I really feel like it would spare me the pain of ocd and my fear playing out. I was already on a crisis line today but cant share the urge to hurt myself. The crisis worker tried to help me but I honestly felt like I was just wasting their time and they could have been helping someone else so I said I was fine and got off the line. I'm not, I cant stop this overwhelming urge. I know we are supposed to sit with discomfort but this one is a lot. I keep imagining different ways to hurt myself and I'm itching to do them.

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

PLEASE Can someone please help me ASAP

I am freaking out with panic. It feels like I want to or have to hurt my boyfriend and it’s causing me to have the worst panic attack I’ve had in a while. It feels like I should be in a mental institution and all I want to do is cry. I know at a time like this I need to lean into the anxiety but I’m absolutely terrified. Please. Anyone. Words of wisdom or encouragement. It feels so different than normal and of course I’m so worried this is not OCD. how could it be? It’s so convincing and scary.

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