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Well it’s very normal for straight people to think a girl is good looking. It’s different when you desire to be with that girl. Like a crush.
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Even really that “it’s possible” makes me want to vomit. Like I just got sooo hot and nauseous feeling.
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I know what you mean. The attraction thing gets sooo muddled though just from all the analysis. Like it’s so exhausting.
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I know that that’s the point. Like I know at one point in my life I probably thought “what if I was a lesbian” and was like whatever probably not and shrugged it off. But I don’t know how to get back to that. It’s like I have to have anxiety about these thoughts because if I don’t then it means I’m accepting them and they’re true.
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I feel like someone who is actually a lesbian doesn’t go back and forth like we do. Also they have different fears connected to why they don’t want to come out. With ocd, there are much different reasons.
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I’m right there with you! For me, I get so exhausted because I keep going back through my history and thinking about things I did and said and thought and then it really freaks me out. Like I remember thinking Stella from OITNB (aka Ruby Rose) was like good looking and I remember admitting that and now I can’t stop thinking about it. Like why did I even say that? A straight person wouldn’t have said that. So clearly this is proof I’m not straight. I just keep wishing I could go back in time and take it back.
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So I don’t think that’s proof. It’s possible it is but I don’t think so.
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The only reason I said that was because I was trying not to give you reassurance. What I’m trying to remember is if I don’t want to be something I don’t have to be it. I always have thoughts like “what if when I get older I’m like that?” “What if I’ve never actually liked guys?” Almost all ocd thoughts are what if ones. That also helps. If you feel sick thinking about being with a girl then you don’t want to be with one. I used to feel so sick a couple months ago but now I’m so used to the thoughts I don’t feel sick anymore and that scares me. I used to wake up in the morning and my stomach would hurt from all the anxiety I couldn’t eat because I felt terrible. I’m at the point where I want it to not be true and some days I know it’s not true but I just can’t get out. I’m stuck in a hell I don’t want to be in. It’s terrible.
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What’s crazy to me is I was on tik tok if you know what that is and I found this guy super attractive. I’ve always been super into mixed guys they just attract me more than other guys idk why? But shouldn’t that be proof? I like guys period. My mind just doesn’t get it
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Yeah it really is. I know I’ve been getting better I just think having no more anxiety and not feeling as bad about the thoughts is confusing me
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I know I just need to stop worrying and I know that’s easier said then done obviously. What I’m going to do is remember that it’s always been like this! The same stuff over and over. It has to be ocd, if I was a lesbian I would not point blank period
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The way to win ocd is to make your brain not get triggered by these thoughts. Doing this is hard but imo you need to stop trying to tell yourself you are not a lesbian as that may be a compulsion. If possible tell yourself that you are a lesbian and try to think about all the consequences you fear over and over again without trying to get reasurance. I know it's hard but once you make your brain to stop fearing beeing a lesbian ocd gets wrecked.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I haven’t posted on here in a few days because I was feeling better but the past two days I’ve climbed my way back down the rabbit hole it seems. There’s this guy that I’m interested in and he seems to be interested in me. He keeps calling me pretty and how he’d like to meet me (he’s friends with my friends but I haven’t met him properly yet lmao) But I keep getting thoughts like “you’re not interested, you like women” and so on. I was feeling giddy about the whole thing up until two days ago where everything just seemed to shut off like my attraction, excitement and so on. I can’t believe I’m going through this again and I’m really trying to accept the thoughts but it’s so debilitating as I really want a bf but my brain keeps passing through thoughts that I do not want at all. Does anyone relate? Or have any coping strategies to help?
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hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.
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