Religious and sleep OCD! My ocd is being an absolute anus. I feel like shit and I can't sleep at all. I've tossed and turned, I haven't slept in god knows how long :(. And my lovely friend is staying over for a long time cause she's got nowhere else bless her, and I'm worried that I won't sleep the whole time she is here, cause we will be sharing my bed and I can't sleep much if at all with people in my bed.. She stayed yesterday night, and I don't think I slept, and tonight I didn't sleep, and she's due back soon. I'm just stressed with my anxiety bad at the moment. I really love her company she's lovely, but I'm so ocd and asbergers. Also another thing, I know it's stupid because I don't believe it about other lgbt plus people, but I feel like because I'm bisexual, that God hates strictly me, and that I'll be going to hell. And I keep thinking about a thing I told my friend, I got so drunk and I told my friend that my mum said she'd disown god if he wouldn't let him in. And she never even said that I just said it because I wanted to make him know he's loved a lot by mum. I said that I bent the words a lot cause he said you can't just say that because if she said that that means a hell of a lot to me. So I've been thinking about that lie I made over and over again for weeks it's on my mind. I feel so bad, feel like I'm going to hell guys.

I don't have the ocd you have but I do have bipolar disorder which when I am on my high, I literally can't sleep and don't think I need it because I have too much energy, recently I went to a psychiatrist and she gave me medication for it and a specific pill she gave me just makes my eyes fall and I can't even help it, it helps me sleep. If you want to you could talk to your psychiatrist about this. It's actually a pill that helps with anxiety because I have that too(with my OCD called excoriation) and I do that obsessive picking in nights when I'm supposed to sleep. So it's a night pill and it just helps you with your anxiety and calms you down but is makes me sleep like a baby xx the pill's name is xanor. I drink a half one when I'm in a very stressful place and a full one at night. Also I am bisexual and believe in God. This next comment might not help much because you have ocd and the thought is obsessive. I am not Christian because I believe in the Bible and interpret it on my own way. If you want you could try too. But it might not help like I said. There is a reason Jesus went to the cross and it is for us. We are prone to "sin" because we are human. It's okay to be bisexual. I think I read in the Bible once that men aren't allowed to shave and women shouldn't shave their legs either because they are "changing their body" just like with tattoos. But really shaving is necessary and that quote should be taken with a grain of salt and things change. There is not a Bible that was directly written for our 21st century and things have changed. What I'm trying to say is, don't feel guilty about being bisexual. Al long as you believe in God in your heart you will go to heaven. If you know you are going to sleep now and you can't stay awake (which I'm not sure when it's going to happen because I don't know lots about sleep ocd) just pray to God and ask him if he could send you a message through a dream. It happened to me once but it might happen to you too. All these things I said are just suggestions and I'm not professional but I like to support.

Wow, thank you! I will look into that sleeping med. My mum has bipolar, I have it where I feel so exhausted, but my thoughts won't shut up. I physically feel drained when I don't sleep. I stay in bed with anxiety basically when I get sleepless which is often. Every night is a bit difficult to sleep. Good thinking! I will ask God to send me a message in my dream. Mind you, it may be a bad dream and then my ocd would make me think that, I hate ocd xx