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- 5y
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- 5y
Yeh, then do that as soon as possible. Just get the test done at on of the NHS clinics. Hope you feel better soon .
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- 2y
@skhaan This is an old post but I am reading stories since I have hiv ocd. Someone passed me a fork last night and I’m afraid she had blood on her hands and now I feel like she could have infected me. I know it’s my paranoid thinking but can you get hiv through mouth?
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Firstly HIV dosent transmit so easily. Having been involved in health care, if it was that easy everyone will have HIV . But I'm sure you have been tested and had multiple reassurances from professional, so clearly that dosent calm your mind. I will say when HIV thoughts come, do not block them. Let them come. By not blocking and being with these thoughts/anxiety it will dissapeared soon, like very soon
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- 5y
BioSURE tests are self tests, they apparently have a 99.7% accuracy rate. I think the NHS uses them too, but I just can't shake the feeling of thinking I have HIV and have passed it on. I've not had reassurance from a professional, I'm considering going to the GUM clinic on Monday for something even more conclusive. Although BioSURE does say that as long as you test after 12 weeks the result is conclusive.
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- 5y
@skhaan I’m in a pickle myself can you give me some advice seeing as you worked in health care? I washed my hands to the point of cracking and bleeding. Yesterday my hand was bleeding fresh blood and I got on a train. I accidentally knocked my cut skin on the plastic headrest of the train seat. When I looked up there was what looked like fresh blood there. I’m not sure if it was mine or not, because I didn’t notice any before I sat down, but if it was someone else’s blood, I’m panicking I now have hiv in my cut The hiv helpline said no it’s not a risk, as did the sexual health helpline, but I’m thinking “they’re obviously not listening to me” or “what if they don’t understand the situation I’m explaining” The last guy I spoke to said they’d tell me if there was a risk because they’re in deep trouble if they don’t but I’m so on edge because I don’t wanna pass it to my partner
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- 22w
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 19w
Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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- 18w
I’m anxious about HIV. What if I get it? That’s a scary thought to me. And then I’m scared/worried about giving it to others, not knowing if I have it, etc.
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