Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

Venting

I just called off work on a Sunday my attendance is so bad I started in August at my new job and I have called off now 8 times since then but they overwork people and it’s so stressful being a full time student and working full time at a place that is literally fast paced and non stop all day long. I feel like I’m getting sick with bronchitis too my chest is on fire and it hurts to talk or breathe so I felt like I had to call off and I told my co workers yesterday I would be there but I can’t do it. I don’t think I can do the job anymore but I can’t afford to quit. I don’t know what to do I am a failure. My mental health is getting worse too. The intrusive thoughts and anxiety is bad again and I was doing so well but with all the stress it’s getting worse and I just don’t have the will to go on anymore 💔

777Q

Date posted: 1y

TBH , personally much is learned through adversity and negative outcomes. I have learned more over many years from the things that didn’t work out favorably and learned less from the things that went favorably. Life is the ultimate learning experience.

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q You’re right thank you

777Q

Date posted: 1y

It is fine , better days are coming. I have had many jobs come and go over many years . Cannot hurt to check over Indeed . Feel free to share any questions, thoughts or ideas . I would to provide realistic positive feedback to you , if you choose to share and interact 😊.

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Yeah I’ve been applying to many jobs on indeed. Unfortunately it’s hard to find a place that will work with my college schedule but I’m going to keep trying

777Q

Date posted: 1y

I used to have better luck with Indeed , not so much this year though . Trying Monster and Zip Recruiter also . Partially my issue is I am only interested in working certain hours also and that does limit the opportunities. Just think years from now when you are successful you will be able to look back on this chapter in your life and laugh at it .

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q I hope so because my mom isn’t being very nice about it. My grandma was supportive though

777Q

Date posted: 1y

I am sure they both want what is best for you but have different outlooks and approaches to it .

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Yeah unfortunately my moms not a very emotionally supportive person she can be very cold

777Q

Date posted: 1y

I understand what you are saying and the best that you can, your health and well being should come first . With that said hopefully you are quietly seeking other less demanding job opportunities elsewhere. It is an employers world and they have been patient with you concerning the amount of call outs you have done in a very short time period. Most states are at will meaning the employer can keep or terminate an employee without any real reason. The only exception that comes to mind is if there is blatant discrimination that can be proven that might be the exception.

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q My boss actually messaged me this morning and when I messaged back I told her that I was sick and my symptoms she never answered me. I do know she talks bad about people who call off around other workers including myself so I wouldn’t be surprised if I got let go

777Q

Date posted: 1y

@Mikeneko 🧡 Where a door closes a window opens . I am a Christian also and will say a prayer for you of things resolving for you in the long run of life ✝️🙏.

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q That is true but I would hate myself even more than I already do if I got fired. I know it wouldn’t be the end of the world but I’ve never been fired before. I appreciate that so much thank you 🙏🏻

777Q

Date posted: 1y

How are things going with you on the job front?

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@777Q I just got fired for missing too much work. I told her I quit though so I don’t know what to do. I feel like a failure and I absolutely hate myself right now 💔

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@Mikeneko 🧡 Told my boss I mean

777Q

Date posted: 1y

Missed a word like

BettlesBailey

Date posted: 1y

I know your pain and all I do is just quit and that is not the answer this is what I’m powering threw my self right now I work at a high paced place Amazon got hurt and now on light duty and it’s even rougher felling so guilty over it they make you feel guilty but it’s such a great job I will just keep pushing threw and push means pray until something Happens

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@BettlesBailey I tried Amazon at one point it was too much I lasted a shift and quit my second shift. I’m sorry you got injured I hope you get better soon and they can give you some rest there

BettlesBailey

Date posted: 1y

@Mikeneko 🧡 They are but way to much but I hurt my sciatic nerve so it takes longer to heal and that’s ruff it seems so belittling at times or watched and that is just wrong but it goes on they know we need this job so we put up with a lot once off light duty getting CDL back and getting in to safer work space that’s for sure Amen

Magzzz

Date posted: 1y

@BettlesBailey That is awful I have sciatica not from being injured but it’s so painful so I can’t imagine having to work at Amazon with it. You are in my prayers and I hope that everything works out for you 🙏🏻

🖤BrokenChaos🖤

Date posted: 25w

>> Venting

TRIGGER WARNING Made on Sunday: So, my brother just came home today from a 4 month stay because he had gone manic and made some major threats. He had attacked someone too…. So, I was super anxious. He seems to be alright, but I’m still worried that he’ll hurt my parents or pets, and that I’ll snap if he does. Maybe I’m overthinking it?? I just don’t wanna go into a rage episode and hurt him, because he is my baby brother. *sigh* Since I was anxious earlier, I kept passing out repeatedly and started seizing afterwards. I’m just exhausted and sad and feel bad because I get scared and frustrated and tell my fiancé to break up with me. I know he won’t I’m just scared I’ll hurt everyone around me unintentionally. I’m tired of being in constant pain, I’m tired of the constant emotional rollercoasters, I’m tired of not being able to do or help with pretty much anything; I’m just tired. I don’t mean to bring anyone down, I just needed to vent. And I’m sorry I’m not on here all the time, I have a very strict schedule. And that’s another thing!! I feel so helpless because I can’t do anything. Mom gets frustrated because I refuse to do things or have to do them later and I wish she could just understand. I am doing my damndest to even stand up. I have so much vertigo (dizziness) from the pain I’m in and it really takes a toll. I want to help, to do extra like I used to. But I keep falling and the pain becomes unbearable. The pain meds aren’t working and so that’s gone out the window. I guess it just hurts because she gives me that look like I’m supposed to know what’s going on. I know she’s stressed with having to do everything, taking care of my brother, and her insane workload, so I’m giving her some slack, but it’s still hard. I wish she new how bad I work just to live my life.

veinsoul

Date posted: 24w

in need of help

I don’t know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and it’s been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I haven’t done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like I’m going to fail the semester again. I don’t know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why can’t I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I don’t understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I don’t even know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because I’m tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. I’m at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. it’s like I don’t want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age don’t work as much & I think to myself, “wow, they must be getting in the work done” meanwhile I’m working 3 days a week (which isn’t much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, I’ll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. I’m in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. there’s so much I want to say that I don’t think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 23w

I’m so anxious

I was doing so great for about a month, ups and downs. Now I’m riddled with anxiety. I’m trying to push through, I’ve been cooking and doing other things that make me feel productive. I had Covid like two weeks ago, felt better for 3 days (exhausted though) and boom I get hit with strep throat. My anxiety is through the roof, rejection sensitivity is all I know right now. Ruminating turned up to max volume that I keep having to slam down. I’m feeling pretty hopeless and lonely. I feel scared and full of shame. My body hurts and my throat is killing me. I’m so exhausted. I feel like I’m on 1% I just needed to vent a bit but if anyone has any advice I’d appreciate it so much

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