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- 6y
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- 6y
Yeah. Literally my post shows the insurmountable evidence I have that I do not have HIV yet it just refuses to believe it.
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- 6y
You are preaching to the choir. *Touches door knob at doctors office* my brain: what if there was blood on that? You have a paper cut on your finger, you know. You might want to get tested for HIV once the incubation period has passed. Absolutely ridiculous garbage Brain in my head
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- 6y
Also I was worried about HIV this evening from my boyfriend even though he’s literally shown me his testing papers and been tested twice during our relationship and I know he’s not cheating but am afraid of encounters he had in fucking *2015* and has been tested multiple times since ??
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- 6y
Dude Everytime I worry about HIV and I go and get tested it’s always negative. I feel better for about a month or two. Then rinse and repeat.
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- 6y
I know right? What the fuck. My encounter according to statistics actually has negligible odds of transmission, so much so that they don't even have official numbers. Why can't we just believe the tests? Lol I also made my now boyfriend get tested before we ever were intimate and he was negative but sometimes I worry he isn't.
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- 6y
I also looked up the encounter stats too! Also made my boyfriend get tested before we ever did and THEN again two months ago (we’ve been together a year) because I somehow justified the possibility and he was nice enough to go do it and bring me the unopened letter from the medical office with the results lol. You do not HIV. Your man does not have HIV. I do not have HIV. My man does not have HIV. Let’s make a chant, lmfao. If I didn’t still have these HIV fears, my ocd would pretty much be non-existent. It’s the only battle I’ve left to conquer after a long history of bullshit with this illness.
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Do not have*
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- 6y
We seem to be on somewhat similar levels as my hiv OCD is like the only OCD I have now. If I conquered it then I'd have very little left to get rid of.
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- 6y
Yes same here!!!
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- 6y
I once saw someone say you can get ultimate reassurance with a hiv test but we've both taken multiple and we still panic.
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- 6y
Exactly. I think there’s a lack of understanding at just how magnificent ocd is at wiggling itself out of any logical scenario.
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Ugh guys I am panicking too I had a small cut that bled on my knuckle yesterday from dry hands (washing too much) I got on the train with my currently Bleeding hand and accidentally knocked my hand on the plastic headrest I didn’t notice if there was blood there before or I did that but when I looked up there was fresh blood there. Now I’m scared I have hiv from the blood on the train seat in my new cut I called the hiv helpline and sexual health helpline multiple times and they all say I’m not at risk because it dies quickly in the air, and it would have to be a large open wound and large quantities of blood in my wound BUT WHAT IF
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- 25w
I don’t know what to do I’ve been seeing this guy for roughly 4-5 months and I like him so much like he could be the one. He was in town for something for most of the time we’ve been seeing each other but he recently moved back to his state which is pretty far away. I’m absolutely terrified that I’m going to accidentally get an STD from somewhere like a toilet seat or the other day after taking the bus home I forgot to wash or sanitize my hands before wiping plus I’ve had coworkers and even my roommate admit that they’ve had chlamydia and one has HSV. I’m terrified that I’ll get something and he’ll think I cheated and we’ve both been hurt like that before and I wouldn’t want to put him through that or have him think that of me. I’ve been trying to not google anything or go to the doctors bc those are my compulsion and reassurance seeking things but nothing is helping it’s to the point I don’t want to use the bathroom or do anything does anyone have any tips to help it’s starting to effect my life I know this isn’t possible but I keep thinking it would just be my luck that I’d the odd one out it does happen to
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- 23w
So everything has been going well recently. The only thing pressing is for peace of mind I am getting STD tested on Wednesday morning and I am pretty anxious about what the result will say. I go to certain massage parlors that offer extras. And I have made a point to not engage in intercourse but other non-intercourse things I have done. I was afraid that since those women do other things with people that maybe virtual things were left on the beds I would lay down on or something. I told this to a doctor I saw recently and they said it was highly unlikely. But I still have the health worry. But we will see come Wednesday. The only reason I am going is because I went to the urologist and they wanted me to rule things out since I had what seemed like a UTI but it turned out to not be the case. What's a good way to not focus on catastrophizing the situation. I keep worrying that my life is over if I am diagnosed with something and my future relationships will be tainted or I'll put someones health in jeopardy
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- 18w
This fear keeps coming back and it’s to the point I cry and what to panic. I no longer talk to the man simply because I wanted to move on and find something meaningful to have with someone (relationship wise). I still keep fearing I need to go get my blood checked. Thoughts like “what if I have it and don’t know it and give to someone?” “What if that urine test I took months ago didn’t work” I got tested for stds but it came back negative. They took a urine test but google says you have to have your blood drawn!! I’m so scared. My mind tells me “you have HIV” and then a sense of peace comes and scares me even more!!!
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