cute taco

Date posted: 1y ago

I really need help

For 3 months I've been sadder more than ever I just feel so unhappy with my life and I feel like Don't want to live anymore when I go to school I feel like I don't have any friends and everyone's mean to me but I try to act nice and act like it doesn't bother me but it does I've been abused in the past but my family and bullied very severely at school for all my life I'm so sad I have a therapist at school she's trying to help me but I don't know if I should tell the truth because I'm afraid what she'll say on Thursday when I went to school I felt so sick and sad I didn't want to be there because I didn't feel safe I felt like I wanted to hurt myself and other people I know I never do that I want to hurt myself because I think it'll make me feel better but I managed to let it pass what should I do please give me some advice

Jess85

Date posted: 1y ago

Know that you are valuable and you are important! It’s hard to see it now because I was in your shoes 20 years ago in the exact same situation but there is a purpose and plan for your life! When I feel like I’m having a bad day, music is what helps me and heals me. I am a Christian so mine is praise and worship, but put something uplifting on and get lost in it! It’s so hard to see that the moment you are in right now is gone before you know it and life will continue to go on. Hang in there, be a light for the people around you, you may be the only light they see in the darkness. I found that there were more people than just me feeling sad and alone at school, so we all became a light to each other! Start dreaming about what you want later in life and dive into it… nursing, teacher, veterinarian… anything and just start reading and learning! I know it’s hard to dream about a future that seems so dark, but it can get better!

Brynnie Bear

Date posted: 1y ago

Same I felt like I wanted to die this morning it was really hard. But I got through it and you can too! I recommend watching this video on YouTube it’s called “Why haven’t you healed me?” The Chosen Scene

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

I used have very violent intrusive thoughts when I was younger. The stuff you feel would scare everyone if they knew. I wanted to cut myself and hurt myself because of this too. Like I'd hurt myself before hurting anyone else. Was bullied a lot too, for being depressed which felt like I was being kicked whilst I was down. Does your therapist at school specialise in ocd? If not I'd ask her to help you find one

cute taco

Date posted: 1y ago

I want my therapist at school to help me but I'm just afraid because I feel like if I tell her I think about hurting people she might be afraid of me and I don't want her to feel that way

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

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Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

No worries. If it makes you feel any better, I had 2 voices in my head with ocd when I was a teen telling me to do the worst stuff you could possibly imagine. It gets better if you take the right steps. Stay strong 💪

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm gonna follow you on this app OK? If post a new topic I'll see it and help where I can.

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

I get it. I actually told my therapist in school what my thoughts were as they were aimed at her as an example of the intrusive content. I hated it but the therapist understood. There's a difference between thinking and physically planning. I understand the fear. I don't know the extent of the therapists qualifications at your school, maybe ask her if she's dealt with intrusive thoughts before and what she's dealt with before if she has. That way you can gauge their experience to out your mind at ease with the decision. If you feel like it's not enough help for you you can ask her if there is something they can suggest.

cute taco

Date posted: 1y ago

I'll try to talk to her on Monday I told her I was abused by my mom for many years and have attempted self harm before she's a very nice lady but I'm just really scared that she'll think I'm crazy or try to hurt people at my school I don't want to hurt anybody I just want to be left alone and be happy I'm just nervous to talk to her about it

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

@cute taco I get it. I was neglected by my parents and was isolated for a lot of my teen years, attempted self harm too. Thoughts masdr me scared I was a future serial killer in denial. Scared the crap out of me. I never hurt anyone intentionally, not even when people tried fighting me. How do you currently deal with the thoughts, you mention you just want to be left alone? Is that how you deal with it or is is there any kind of thought processes?

cute taco

Date posted: 1y ago

@Invalid I try to listen to music or just sit there and let it pass but it's just so hard it makes me so sad it makes me feel sick when I was at school on Thursday I wanted to go home so bad because I thought I was going to hurt myself or somebody else and I almost cried

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

@cute taco Oh and another thing, I actually had a student with it too. She ended up with regular therapy and meds for the same thing. She was scared of killing her brother and stabbing people at school for anything that irritated her, like clicking pens repeatedly for example. She obviously didn't want to hurt anyone. She also had voices in her head with it

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

@cute taco Once you get the right therapy it gets easier. It's almost another education on how to manage it, get better

cute taco

Date posted: 1y ago

@Invalid I'll talk to her on Monday thank you so much for your help You're an amazing human being I love you friend 🥰🥰🥰🥰

GuiltyGrapes

Date posted: 23w ago

Why am I still here?

My life has been hell, and I don’t know how to move on. I (15M) did awful things when I started high school, thinking being sexual was the way to connect. I crossed boundaries, overshared, and kept flirting with friends and making sexual jokes, even after they said no (all over text). One friend stopped talking to me and can’t even look at me now. I feel like a monster. Why shouldn’t I be locked up? If I got therapy, I feel like I’d be sent jail. How can I ever move on?Then there were these 2 guys who were older than me one was 16 one was 17. The 16 yr old was introduced to me by my online friend who is my best friend and I begged the 16 yr old for pics (idk how it started but after my friends ex randomly messaged me and sent me pictures and then blocked me right after I think I became addicted to chasing that high) the 16 yr old eventually sent me a pic but it was real and I stopped bugging him on it after that but i feel so bad I did that but my friend tells me not to feel bad cause the guy was weird but I still feel bad. Then the 17 yr old I did the same thing with him but went too far when I tried getting pics from him by using my best friends ass pics she sent me (she was 15) I don’t think I grasped how wrong this was but that’s not an excuse she eventually found it when I told her after she tried getting pics from the guy herself to try and help me and the guy got mad when she stopped talking to him cause we found it weird talking to him. I told her about how I sent the pics she said she felt sick but forgave me cause she thought I was gonna harm myself. Fast forward the guy told me after I had still been flirting with him that I s@d him (we never met in person ever) and I felt so guilty and apologized a lot and he got annoyed and told me that he had been kinda manipulative to me and kept me in a loop of mystery and I don’t talk to him anymore. But one of my other friends stopped talking to me after I was being by too emotionally taxing on him because I became very depressed and didn’t wanna life anymore and tried to stop lifing a few times. And now idk if I actually s@d someone if I did that to someone and now I think I’m a pdo and I think I s@d my baby cousins and my little brother and now I’m scared bf I can’t even get help because my parents don’t believe in therapy and even if I wanted to I’m scared because I don’t want to go to jail but I think I deserve it honestly why should a monster like me live.

Lexi girl

Date posted: 21w ago

I need help

I struggle with self harm and depression. I told my doctor a week ago that I have suicidal thoughts and she put me on an anxiety/depression med and she said it could make things better or worse. I have noticed I barely eat anything anymore and I started to self harm more. I go through my day struggling and I’ve lost my friends and I stay in my room 24/7. I don’t feel like doing anything anymore. People say “oh it’ll get better” or “you’ll overcome it” or “don’t worry it’ll be okay” but guess what it’s not true. I feel like no one gets me or no one will listen to me. No one understands the pain I go through every second of the day trying my hardest to put on a fake smile. I can’t do it anymore. I want it to stop.

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Date posted: 20w ago

Pocd//Suicide//depression

So I and my mom got into this big fight yesterday and I said some things I didn't mean to say to her and she said some things and I know what I said was bad but what she said cut deep in me because Even though what I said to her wasn't good her words hurt because going through wat om going through rn is honestly the worst thing a human can go through my worries and fears now all of a sudden now become feeling of Suicide and self-harm and honestly she's right because at this point I'm at a dead end and there's no going back I didn't tell her what was actually going on with me because I know she will never look at me the same and growing up with parents that are Gen x back in the day mental illness is a fucking joke to them apparently and is not taken seriously not all of them are like this but I know a few now I've been thinking about offing myself I don't think I'm gonna make it I'm really struggling.

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