Ocd came back

Hey sorry you’re feeling poorly. It’s important you give yourself grace, we are all only human. Welcome to the human race❤️. Try and have an attitude of willingness to accept our humaneness, follow your values, and let time pass, you will feel better.

Therapy has been super helpful! I have scrupulosity, and my therapist has been helping a lot (along with medication). Through exposures, it’s much easier to let go of things that bother you and rewire your brain to be a bit calmer. I highly recommend it

So what happens (as far as I understand it) your brain is sending you a signal that this is something you need to worry about, but through exposure and response prevention (which you do in therapy and out of it) you teach your brain thats it’s not something to focus on. My therapist is Kim Simmons, she’s fantastic

Some of the therapists from NOCD can meet you online if you want

It’s hard to resist compulsions, but again, a therapist will really help with this. I think you can schedule a call with one on the app. Maybe if you have time, try to do it now?

I will try tonight I want to give this life one more chance

Thank you

I wish more people were like you on the internet

Feel like nobody cares and it’s really hard to move on

What's stressing you out in life?

I'm sorry but I real event OCD and it's difficult. Here to talk if you need someone to talk to.

I've got a bit a time. Listening

Do you know what are schematics files? Yes so I messed up on them on a server around 8 months ago and my real event ocd is still driving me crazy about it

I just wish it could move on

Yeah I wish my ocd would just move on but it’s been about 8 months and it still bugging me about one thing I wish I was different and didn’t have ocd

No never how can therapy help

I’ve been trying to rewire my mind for 8 months now and nothing has worked

There aren’t many therapy places where I’m from and certainly not for ocd

I would do anything to live life without ocd life feels so numb and viod sometimes I feel like I’m dead but alive at the same time idk how to express it

Do you have insurance?

Yeah, you might be able to work something out through that

Maybe schedule a talk with a therapist here

The worst part of all this is ocd people don’t have much rights tbh nobody respects the disorder and I hate being blamed for stuff I did even tho it was my ocd forcing me not something I chose to do but lucky people like them won’t understand so arguments with stubborn idiots is pointless god knows I’ve tried sometimes I’d rather be dead you know

Hey doesn’t need to be just one more! There’s infinite chances out there ^^ All the best to you! God Bless 💕

The Lord led me to you ^^ let me know how it goes

I know how you feel, I just had a huge flare up of it as well. Literally, it was hard to function and eat. But discussing treatment with a therapist + a trusted and vetted family member saved me a lot. The only reassurance I'll give you is OCD prays exactly on situations like this. You cannot blame yourself for versions of you that you were or could have become. Try and sit with the discomfort that what happened happened, and you know better now. Not "I should have known better", but "I know better now". Hopefully through this, the anxiety will roll off you.