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- 1y ago
Unloveable
Does anybody else feel like they’re unloveable because of their OCD? Like, in every sense. Romantically, platonically, etc . Because I do. Sometimes I look at someone I find attractive and try to see if they find me attractive as well, but then I think, “I’m way too neurotic and I don’t want to ruin anybody’s life.” I’ve been told I’m beautiful so I don’t want to be a shallow, cold-hearted woman because of my neuroticism. I think that makes physical beauty meaningless. I grew up with an abusive crazy mom and an absent alcoholic father. And I was bullied and mistreated by my peers. To this day, my heart feels so empty when it comes to the topic of love. I feel so useless and unlovable. Who cares if you think I’m beautiful? Am I even worth being loved?