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Sometimes I feel so weak and it seems like OCD will be there forever. Like, I know there's no cure, but I want to recover, I want to have a peaceful life, but sometimes I feel so weak, it's frustrating
Sometimes I feel so weak and it seems like OCD will be there forever. Like, I know there's no cure, but I want to recover, I want to have a peaceful life, but sometimes I feel so weak, it's frustrating
People can and do recover from OCD all the time, as far as I know there’s no ‘cure’ because it’s a complex mode of thinking and existing that some people are pre-disposed to, but with the right skills and treatment you absolutely can have a peaceful life. Think of it like having a faulty defence mechanism that you can turn off if you have the right password (combination of tools and therapy). It’s basically just that, a faulty defence mechanism that operates in the fear centre of your brain to conjure up debilitating doubt and uncertainty to provide the illusion of safety. You don’t have to have it turned on forever, even if it feels like it. Hang in there.
I'll try to keep that in mind! I just wanted more moments of peace, idk
@bm111111 I totally get it, sometimes it feels like it’s just too much, but it will get easier, and you can help find those moments of peace by just truly forgiving yourself and letting yourself be. If you can, get as much rest (not sleep), as you can manage without interrupting your responsibilities and go easy on yourself. Wish u all the best.
Ignore the fact that there's no cure and push, don't let anything put you off like that from getting better. I'm aiming to cure myself. May never be achievable but will always have motivation to be better because of it
that is what I've been going through lately I start getting just tired of having to deal with so much on my head its exhausting and then tell myself this is the way I'm going to live for the rest of my life I will never have a normal life like my siblings and friends I will not get cured and reality hurts 💔
Been there. Sorry you feel like this. Why do you feel like you'll be like that for the rest of your life? What would a life without ocd look like to you?
@Invalid wow that's a good question you know I didn't see it that way you're right Idk I guess because all my life growing up I knew something wasn't right I just knew since a child that I for some reason was different not that I was special bt how I felt live was always complicated for myself until a year ago that i found out what ocd even ment and I was diagnosed its like when it hit me and made me realize that many things I did and felt like in the past was my ocd I am not sure bt It wasn't as bad as now I have developed a skin picking disorder (excoriation, dermatillomania) and eating disorder as well I haven't been able to live life or enjoy a bit of it since and it hurts me seen who I am now and remember the old version of me before all this just got to the point where I can't find a way out of my mental illness and knowing theirs no cure brings me less hope to atleast feel some happiness again
@ari_n55 Since being diagnosed with ocd, did you do any therapy? What led to you being diagnosed? Also, screw that there's no recorded cure. I felt the same and knew there was something different about me, or different about everyone else. Had it undiagnosed for 27 years. I looked at the stats for recovery when looking to get better and I still remember it because its now a badge of honor for me. 1.2% of the people have ocd. 10% of those seek to get better. 10% of those who get therapy actually see improvement with an average 6-12months minimum. You know what I said when I saw that? F*** that sh**!! That's not good enough for me, I'll prove them all wrong. The improbable is not the impossible. I got therapy and I aim to cure myself completely. Just because it's not been done before doesn't mean it can't be done. I then changed my goal to complete remission. In 3 months I did achieved it. It was hell, honestly but is so it a million times over to get better. Especially now as I know what it feels like. So screw the stats, and screw that there's no " cure", there may or may not be one, just not discovered yet. Even if there was one, I'd doubt it would be a magic pill. You can get better with the right guidance but you need to be willing to put in the work. Find something to motivate you. What do you want in life? What do you want to achieve?
I'd do it a million times over to get better *
im tearing up right now as i read your reply but its with a sincere smile, i want to say thanks! your words gave me the strength and courage I couldn't find in me again. you're absolutely right I'll never forget that "the improbable is not the impossible" it makes me happy to know you've achieved your goal and that gives me hope once again. thank you 😊
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
I know everything im dealing with is OCD. I have accepted that, but I just feel down. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this. I just want to be free from this horrible illness. Any positive stories and recovery journeys will help. What did recovery look like for you? I used to be so happy, I miss it so much. This feels like it’s taken everything from me. How do you just live your life despite how you feel? Any hope will help!
The thought of ocd being long-term is scaring me pretty bad. My therapist told me in our first visit last week that it will always come back and it triggered me. I know everyone says it’s manageable, but I keep having the thought that I won’t be able to handle it the rest of my life and I will want to suic. myself. I am terrified :(
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