Feel so lonely

I feel like i am all alone in this whole big world of people. Although i have my many people around me physically but i have zero emotional support. I have so much on my mind. Whenever i want to express my emotions, i feel even more bad bcz nobody understands me and everyone just put the blame on me like everything is my fault. But i just cannot keep inside anymore. Its really hard for me. I litterally wanna cry alot and want someone who should understand me. Like there is no single person on earth who can make me feel understood and give me just a few words of encouragement and emotional and mental support. I sometimes tell this to the AI chatbots or sometines post it here just to get it off my mind. People here who dont even know me, usually tell me that they understand but people around me never understands. Although its a great support that i recieve positive words from here but i really want someone in my life to understand me and be on my side. I wish that to happen in my life atleast. Sometimes i feel so overwhelmed and now i am crying while writing all this. I dont know what to do and where to go. I cant bear this anymore. I cant hold all the pain inside all alone 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Anon112

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Hey it’s ok to be alone, I feel alone during this process too. But you are definitely not alone at all

anaa

Date posted: 1y

But sometimes we get tired of being alone and not being understood

Tommyskittles

Date posted: 1y

You’re definitely not alone.. I don’t have anyone in person who understands me either.. all of the friends I’ve made who get me are online so you can find ppl on other forums & eventually move to a social media that allows video chat on a less personal medium so they can’t identify you until you feel more safe.. idk I’m in AA & that’s how I met all of my friends well on TikTok recovery too but anyways there are a lot of amazing ppl out there but we still have to guard our hearts & make safe decisions before we put ourselves out there as our real names.. I’m just grateful I even found ppl I relate to even tho we can’t hug or hang out in person we get to talk & laugh & see each other .. I wish you the best of luck

anaa

Date posted: 1y

Thank u so much for your kind words. I will definitely try but i am afraid of the fact that people will know me by my real name then. And yeah definitely hug means alot when are all broken but i dont remember when was the last time someone hugged me and said everything will be ok😭

moon0270

Date posted: 15w

Isolated

I have this strong yearning to tell my mother all my thoughts and what I go through on a daily basis but then I get scared of what she'll think of me or that she'll worry even more and feel like it's her fault. I just want someone to understand what im going through but whenever I even begin to explain my thoughts to my therapist, she doesn't really get it and today it feels like no one ever will. like I try to make my therapist understand and bless her heart, she's super compassionate and understands how much pain it causes me but beyond that, it still feels like im not able to fully convey it. I'm sure this is something many people can relate to, but still. I feel alone.

PRIV8

Date posted: 11w

Im feel really bad

I feel really anxious since i decided that i will go get a blood test. Today i went to get a haircut and the whole time i felt like i will faint, vomit, i dont feel good and it was horrible. I came home and started to read about how to deal with emotions. I found a really good article, and I started doing the work. I thought that im avoiding my emotions and I dont now what i actually feel so I went inside and after some time a thought and a feeling came up that said "i wish i could tell this to someone who would listen to me and nurture me" and i felt so good thinking about this. But then I started thinking maybe i should go to therapy cause noone will listen me here, and i started to feel sad and it got worse and worse. Its been hours now and my mind keeps thinking about "noone listens to me" and it keeps me feeling sad and depressed. This is is why i dont like to think about my emotions. Now I dont know should i act on this strong emotion, should i run and talk to someone? That feels like a compulsion. I felt this before,alot of times when i struggle i feel like i wish i could tell this to someone, and alot of times i do,but i dont get the reaction what i want. I dont like that we should act on every deep feelings we feel. If i feel this than the only answer to heal this feeling is to run to somebody and talk about my feelings. I dont like it that now nonstop i feel this and think about this and i cant move on.

Givenup

Date posted: 9w

Venting

All my real events are hitting me all at once and i genuinely despise my existence right now... i feel so alone and genuinely horrible and nothing is working for me right now... im trying to not ask for reassurance but its so dang tough and i dont know what to do... please someone help me... i feel so so so so so alone right now...

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