it just feels true right now but I just feel numb and like I don't even care to do compulsions. My boyfriend also isn't treating me well right now which makes stuff worse wahhh
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@Gerardo02 So there’s a way to get back to how we used to be? I just need a sense of hope right now.
@Gerardo02 Are you in therapy or anything of the sort ? I don’t have any ocd connections and I can’t afford therapy and don’t have any health insurance at the moment. I’ll check out that person on YouTube!
@Gerardo02 I looked him up as soon as you said something about him. Thank you
@Gerardo02 I am actually! It doesn’t bother me at all. He makes a lot of good points that I’m really relating to so far.
I relate to the “I don’t even care to do compulsions” like I’m so tired of doing them at this point
Doorspike,??
@KathyOCDland sometimes folks use the term “backdoor spike” to describe a spike in OCD thoughts that occurs when anxiety around the thoughts is lessened. it commonly occurs when a person hits their stride in treatment, thus, it sneaks up on them like a visitor entering through the back door of a house (or at least that’s how i visualize it!) I’m experiencing it right now (it’s taking the form of “meta OCD”) and what’s helping me is a reminder from my therapist to use response prevention messages (i.e. “this may or may not be an OCD though, but I don’t need to figure it our right now.”) and using DBT mindfulness skills of describing (while I listen to music or do breathing exercises) and labeling (“that thought is back” “im thinking about that again”) before turning my attention elsewhere.
@kendallkhaleesi omg *thought and *out lol
do you ever get so tired and used to all of this that you dont even want to react to the thoughts or do the compulsions… like, i had a talk with my boyfriend he tried to make a “talk therapy “ with me maybe i will do a post about that and i felt better after talking with him (since i have rocd amd he wants to help me) and ofc i still have some thoughts and a bad feeling in me but i dont want to act on my thoughts or give them atention bc im so over this. is it normal reaction??? am i faking my ocd???
for me it’s getting to the point where i don’t feel in love with my boyfriend anymore. i’m trying to keep myself from compulsing since my compulsions are all mental. it’s like the thoughts consume my mind every second of every day and i can’t catch a break. it’s like i want to be with him so bad but my brain won’t allow me. any advice?
hi! I broke a short period of doing well without compulsions because I got triggered again. Before this, I had about two calmer days where I didn’t spiral so much, but now everything feels worse. I’m scared that I don’t love my boyfriend as much as I used to, or that this relationship is making me feel stuck or sad. He’s a wonderful person, and I hate thinking this way. I smelled a perfume that used to make me feel calm and in love, and now it just makes me question everything. I spent hours last night searching Reddit, especially on r/ROCD, trying to see if someone is like me or if anyone has answers. I keep rereading posts, hoping I’ll feel certain about what I should do. But I just feel more confused. I keep thinking, “What if I heal and then realize I don’t love him?” or “What if I’m only staying because I feel safe with him or I’m used to him?” I feel numb sometimes, or like I’m pretending, and I hate it. I want to feel love and clarity again. I don’t know what’s real or what’s ROCD anymore. I just feel lost and afraid. I talk to hi. now and i feel so strange like i dont want to force myself i want to like him i dont understand what i feel i feel so weird in my chest
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