I was curiously looking through the comment section of a YouTube video about OCD and saw something that horribly triggered my OCD and now I can't stop worrying about it.
I get triggered often too. For me it’s sometimes the news or when things are violent or graphic.
@ Choupette Same, YouTube, twitter and Reddit are my biggest triggers. I have to avoid them most of the time because of all of the bad stuff that gets on the recommendation page and on the TL.
Can I ask what it was that triggered you? You don’t have to say!
It was a comment about a person who had OCD and the actual thing they were afraid of calling it 'anxious attraction' and it scared me
@endless_echoes I can totally see why that could be triggering, I’d feel the same way
@ck99 - I kind of wish I never saw it... I can't stop ruminating about it now and it's become another fear of mine.
@endless_echoes Sorry so just to be clear, the person who had OCD said they have anxious attraction? Or was it someone else? I wouldn’t pay any mind to other people on different platforms! If it was a non OCD person who said this, they wouldn’t understand OCD. But I totally understand and I’m sorry if none of this is helping, I’d be triggered as well. On the bright side, this could potentially be a good ERP exposure
@endless_echoes But I understand, I ruminate a lot and it’s very easy to develop new fears. You got this tho, don’t lose hope
@ck99 - It was a person on YouTube who said they knew someone who had both OCD and real attraction to the thing they were worried about. I stopped reading after that. :(
@endless_echoes Im so sorry, like I said I understand why that’s triggering. Although I thought it wasn’t possible to have OCD and also be that specific thing you’re scared of unless I’m wrong
@ck99 - I also think it's not possible either. Mainly because OCD sufferers worry about having those scary false feelings while the real thing is something entirely different from what people with OCD experience. So when I saw that post I became even more worried about the intrusive thoughts.
I feel so triggered after another youtuber was accused of p*dophilic activity and MAP (minor attracted person) behavior and my pocd is saying that my real events ocd (from my previous past) situation is as bad or worse than theirs....
I was on YouTube looking for saw traps I scenes and I see a saw 5 playlist and I was a bit horny because I was thinking of the guy I’m talking to and it’s like what if the playlist had inappropriate stuff on kids and I got arosal and then I got worried and went to see if there was stuff on kids there The gronial response gets intense I felt arousal because of the idea I might find content of kids there I think I’m a p how is this ocd I get worried when I open playlists or images because I’m going to think there’s inappropriate stuff and I don’t want to accidentally see it and I feel guilty afterwards I feel like I also touched my brother inappropriately I asked if I ever did anything he said no but what if he thinks it’s not wrong or he’s not telling me the truth
I've been watching a lot of mainly political videos recently. It started as trying to get a better understanding of everything going on in the world and how we got here in the first place, but one of the last videos I came across was about certain hateful groups of people that are becoming more active in recent years due to varying factors. The whole video made me so uncomfortable. Rightfully so, I think, even if it was informative. But now I can't stop thinking about how scary it is that humans can be sort of indoctrinated into such hateful mindsets and views... These issues have existed for a long time in the US, but recently, I've noticed that a lot of people are being more vocal about certain discriminatory views they hold and things. Maybe I'm overloading myself with too much information. I don't know. I'm just feeling really unsettled after that video. I can't imagine ever becoming someone like that, but it scares me to think about :(
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