I was curiously looking through the comment section of a YouTube video about OCD and saw something that horribly triggered my OCD and now I can't stop worrying about it.
I get triggered often too. For me it’s sometimes the news or when things are violent or graphic.
@ Choupette Same, YouTube, twitter and Reddit are my biggest triggers. I have to avoid them most of the time because of all of the bad stuff that gets on the recommendation page and on the TL.
Can I ask what it was that triggered you? You don’t have to say!
It was a comment about a person who had OCD and the actual thing they were afraid of calling it 'anxious attraction' and it scared me
@endless_echoes I can totally see why that could be triggering, I’d feel the same way
@ck99 - I kind of wish I never saw it... I can't stop ruminating about it now and it's become another fear of mine.
@endless_echoes Sorry so just to be clear, the person who had OCD said they have anxious attraction? Or was it someone else? I wouldn’t pay any mind to other people on different platforms! If it was a non OCD person who said this, they wouldn’t understand OCD. But I totally understand and I’m sorry if none of this is helping, I’d be triggered as well. On the bright side, this could potentially be a good ERP exposure
@endless_echoes But I understand, I ruminate a lot and it’s very easy to develop new fears. You got this tho, don’t lose hope
@ck99 - It was a person on YouTube who said they knew someone who had both OCD and real attraction to the thing they were worried about. I stopped reading after that. :(
@endless_echoes Im so sorry, like I said I understand why that’s triggering. Although I thought it wasn’t possible to have OCD and also be that specific thing you’re scared of unless I’m wrong
@ck99 - I also think it's not possible either. Mainly because OCD sufferers worry about having those scary false feelings while the real thing is something entirely different from what people with OCD experience. So when I saw that post I became even more worried about the intrusive thoughts.
I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again
Idk anymore it feels like being on here is a trigger. Every time I see a minor post on the app, my intrusive thoughts go haywire and then my brain says maybe you should comment something inappropriate and i literally don't wanna fucking do that. It's the last thing I want to do. And now im scared that I commented something crude on someone's post. obviously, when I went to check there was nothing now my brain is saying "you commented and then deleted". I want to think it's something I wouldn't do, but why are the images in my head so real. Children should be safe. I feel like I need to be locked away. Someone please help me.
Guys for the past couple of hours ive been spiraling! I wad researching and came across this harm ocd article question that has been worrying me. The title was "im scared of hurting someone when I'm mad. Can i trust myself?" And I was thinking "hey that's what ive been worried about for the past several months!" I even AVOID being angry. Im scared of it bc I get a lot of thoughts and I'm hyperaware of my hands and feel them tingly! Last time i tensed so hard to stay still as possible bc I was so so nervous from my thoughts and my hand twitched which made me SPIRAL. I never want to cause harm! And i always start crying after an argument bc the thoughts are so so scary! Anyway I got afraid bc the article said "research has shown that people with ocd don't struggle with impulse control- so if you find yourself intensely worried you could do harm based on the intrusive thoughts or urges you have, it's likely something else is going on." THAT SENTENCE HAS LEFT ME WITH A TON OF ANXIETY! Its so bad, my appetite is gone! I'm scared does this mean I don't have ocd and should be seriously concerned?!
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