It's all different, everything. Don't know who I am, what I am, why I am. I don't believe I'm capable of having relationships with people. There's just no purpose for me.
You're not alone in feeling that way. I hope things get better for us
I feel like I need people in my life who understand what I'm going through. It's like family and everyone and everything around me just goes on normally and I'm just a spectator or something. Ever feel that way?
I completely empathize of what you’re going through. Hopefully what I say is not reassurance, however, just hear me out. I drank for over 13 years. I kept suppressing my emotions and traumas. I thought that the alcohol would help me be more confident and popular with people, extroverted. I recently am three months, sober, and I don’t even know who I am anymore. I don’t know what I like. I don’t know what I am, and I don’t know what’s the future for me. However, be that as it may, I feel that I could become whatever I wanna be. Actually trying to find myself and the people that care about me will also come with. I get that right now it’s daunting and you’re nervous with anxiety, however, you deserve to find who you are and also, find out what you want to be now. And believe me you will because when I was a drunk and loser, I lost my family, I lost my girlfriend, and worst of all I lost myself, and now people are proud of me, and I got my family back.and I’m so grateful for it every day. I have faith you can do and also that you mean more. You are stronger than you think and you deserve to give yourself more credit. May God bless you.
Thanks for your kind encouraging words!
It’s good you don’t have a label to use of who you are. You are a feeling, caring, viable human being who is working on living a full life. You just are, that is why, that is enough. Right now you think you can’t have relationships, but that will change too. It’s hard work, I won’t say that. Your purpose is to learn, grow, help yourself and others and live life fully, to do so, you must have trust in yourself and give yourself permission to feel bad/sad from time to time. Life is none stop uncertainties. There is only awakening to the fact that you do your best each day. You have more power than you think you do. You choose each day how you react or don’t react. Observing is just fine, observe your presence by just keeping quiet and still so you can ground yourself and recharge. It is easy to get lost in this world, with all the noise (tv, text, email, social media, car horns, traffic, work/school demands, family issues, friendship issues and more). Take time out for yourself. Regroup, go somewhere like beach, quiet room, earplugs, aromatherapy, bath, book, nap, yoga, observe nature etc. This will enable to reset and focus on what matters and what is working, what is comforting, what helps, why you need time for yourself, which is a gift to yourself. Hope that helps.❤️
It does, thanks!
I'm sorry. I've felt like this before
it feels like the fear i once knew it wasnt real now it is, it feels like i dont like him anymore and that i have changed. i am numb.
My body has done weird things during interactions and sometimes it feels like the movements came from me, like I controlled them. It’s freaking terrifying. Sometimes I believe I’ve gone psycho. I don’t know who the fuck I am anymore. Maybe I should just accept that I’m a danger to society.
So i started to feel like a lesbian again and that i have to be one. I dont want to be one. I just dont. But being straight feel like a lie now. I question my whole life, my feelings and everything. The biggest indicator of this must be that i will be slowly 21 year old and ive never dated anyone and i dont really find anyone attractive and i dont even know if i truly was attracted to someone and im scared of relationships i might have trauma or have anxious avoidant attachment. Help me. I do feel lost. Really lost. I dont know who am I anymore. I feel like that i must have been gay my whole life now. I feel like an alien. I sometimes feel like 2 people are living inside of me.😞😞😞
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