I know this may look like I'm seeling for reassurance but I've been getting intrusive thoughts since May after my ex bf broke up with me but over time, I've not been feeling anxious over the intrusive thoughts anymore like I'm almost comfortable with the thoughts... Is this normal? These thoughts are completely out of my character.

I can sorta relate to this! About 2 months ago, I started getting really bad intrusive thoughts (about my relationship). I was so anxious, I couldn’t function. Now they’re not bothering me so much (my new obsession is whether or not this is OCD) but not being worried is making me anxious too (although I don’t feel as noticeably anxious at 2 months ago) does that make sense?

Yeah it does make a lot of sense. I couldn't fucntion either when it first started like i couldn't eat, sleep, concentrate but now i can do all these things better than before. I'm also worried that I don't have OCD too and that it's just the real me bit I know it's not cause it's pretty much the opposite to who I really am. Have you had any treatment on OCD?

I did many years ago (ERP) but I didn’t gel to it very well. For this current episode, I’m finding it really hard to find anyone locally who can help to be honest.

I had CBT treatment a few years ago but as soon as I got a boyfriend. Problem is that I don't remember the CBT strategies so there's nothing I can do to settle this OCD at the moment which sucks but hopefully this new treatment will be a road to recovery. Have you gone to an actual doctor and explained your OCD? They might be able to get you referred somewhere that's right for you.

What type of OCD are you suffering from? (If you don’t mind me asking). I’ve been to the doctor and I’ve been put on medication and referred to all the relevant places but the wait lists are so long I feel like I’m going insane haha. I’m reaching out to places in America (I’m in the UK) but they’re all very expensive

Well I had hOCD then rOCD but when my relationship ended with my bf, the hOCD came back but now I've got harm OCD and I'm getting thoughts that I want to hurt/murder people especially the people who mean everything to me like my family. I've briefly had ones where I wanted to harm myself too during my rOCD. I've always been a kind hearted, caring, loving person and doing something nasty like that is the last thing I would do. It's driving me insane but yet it's almost like I'm used to it now and that I don't as anxious about it which worries me. Yes I had that same provlem with the place I was referred to a few years ago like I waited months as the waiting list was long but this time, I've gotten in really quickly thank goodness cause it's way worse than before. I would keep trying to look for ones in the UK rather than going through all that trouble finding a place in America when it might be just as difficult. There must be somewhere in the UK that can help.

I had hOCD about 10 years ago- exactly the same thoughts. Some were really gruesome, I felt like a physcopath. I can’t remember how long that lasted. I was diagnosed with OCD then but when I started CBT with a trainee therapist she dismissed it as anxiety (which I do have but I think there’s more to it). So I understand that worry. Remember that those thoughts aren’t you (you know this) and you’ll get through it. I understand how hard it is though. And America doesn’t have such long waits, just an annoying time difference!