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@Al_i Are you catholic?

@PhilippFree Yes I am Catholic, hbu?

@PhilippFree There were many obstacles, some of them were blasphemous thoughts, wanting to go to confession 3 days after my last confession because I felt like anything could of have been a grave sin, wondering if my confession had been valid because I could of have accidentally not say one of my sins. I also experienced doubt on if the priest had actually blessed holy water correctly, or if the water continued being regular water. I also thought that God was mad at me and was going to punish me every time I sinned. There were times in which a thought of doubt would come about the presence of Jesus in the Eucharistic, but it was all my OCD, and then I experienced guilt for doubting. At some point I also thought that I should join a religious order and become a sister, but I think it was all my scruples. What helped me overcome my challenges was Thomas M. Santa’s book, understanding my OCD condition and actually “believing” that because of my condition I experienced all of those scruples. “Accepting” them as part of me, and knowing that God understood me helped a lot. Another thing that helped me was talking to a Catholic therapist who helped me understand that God really loves me regardless of my imperfections. What I can tell you is that I still experience scruples but now I just let them be, accept that they are part of my condition, and believe that God doesn’t take them as sins, and that his mercy for me is big. Also be careful with people who don’t understand the condition, they might say things that are not true and only confuse you.

@Al_i Thank you for your answer! I recognize myself in some of your answers. But I feel that I was a bit more extreme 😅 I went two confession sometimes twice a day with a gap of 10-15 minutes. I stopped because I realized it was my ocd. I still dont receive communion because I experience myself as unworthy. Im too currently struggling with all the vocation stuff if I should become a priest but I dont think it would be healthy with ocd to become a priest cause it could nourish it. Furthermore I had ocd since I was a child but didnt know that it had a name I came acros it whes I was 15 or so. How did theology of the body help ypu? I hear people actually criticize it cause John Paul II fell back into a preconciliar theology. My ocd affects especially my sexuallty and blasphemy thats why Im asking.

@PhilippFree I really encourage you to receive communion, remember that God loves you so much and desires that you receive him in the Eucharistic. Even if you feel unworthy, remember that He made you worthy because of Grace, and His mercy is stronger than our sins. When it comes to vocation, put it in Gods hands, and whatever gives you the most peace and makes feel free that’s your vocation. If the priesthood is your vocation then God will help you. Think of Ignatius of Loyola, Alphonsus Liguori and Therese of Lisieux who are some of the few saints who suffered from scrupulosity on their path to sainthood. Theology of the body helped me so much because it helped me discover a God who is full of love, and mercy. My ocd would always make me feel like God was going to punish me for everything, but with the theology of the Body I discover Gods love. I think it really helped me with my OCD and that not everything was just rules. And yes I’ve heard that many people would criticize him, but he is now a saint and his teachings of the love that God has for us have helped many find freedom and healing. Also Theology of the body touches the topic on sexuality multiple times, and helps you see it in a positive perspective. When it comes to blasphemous thoughts the thing that helped me was the book of Thomas M Santa. The theology of the body didn’t focus on blasphemy.

@Al_i I wish you a blessed advent time and merry christmas - pray for me too im gonna pray for you