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This gonna be a long text lol. Well I've had it nearly my whole life but it was all physical so it wasn't that bad but since 2015, it's all been intrusive thoughts. Firstly it was trying to make me like this guy who I wasn't interested in, then I had harm OCD which lasted for months but it passed thankfully then I didn't really have any OCD until months later, I started to suffer from hOCD but I met a guy who i dated for 6 months and it went. I dated another guy months later which lasted for nearly 2 years. I didn't really suffer from OCD much for a while though I had it every now and then but then suddenly one day, he broke up with me then my hOCD came back straight away but it wasn't too bad and we got back together again but weeks after, I start to suffer from rOCD and it stopped me from seeing and messaging him as often. He broke up with me again because I wasn't seeing him enough but I tried everything to see him but I think he didn't really care so much about me in the end. After that, my hOCD become really severe and I lost all my attraction for guys and everything felt so real and after a while, any thought that came into mind just felt like it was me but I know it wasn't but as soon as I'm at my weakest, my harm OCD returns and all my OCD does is harass me saying I want to harm my loved ones and that I'm a murderer. I know that it's completely the opposite to who I really am but my OCD won't let me feel and think that. It's driving me insane and the urges are horrible but I manage to control them. Going to the doctors will help you and I'm scared too but it should be a good thing especially if you're getting CBT.
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To me it sounds like OCD despite only having one theme. I wouldn't be scared to go to the doctors and talk to them about it. Thank you, I hope it does too :)
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Harm OCD has been the most consistent one for me but the hOCD appears a lot but I think the harm OCD has been there pretty much since it first ever started but it just wasn't as bad for a couple of years. I know harming/murdering my loved ones or anyone is the last thing I want. Ive always been caring, loving, kindhearted. I know that being evil is the opposite to my real self but you are right, OCD goes for the things that scare a person the most. If I could fight it off before then I can do it again!
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B13 in ocd it doesn't matter how many themes you have,i only had 1 for 5 years and then another one for 2 months, it's possible to have ocd without any themes even for life if you are lucky and manage it correctly,ocd is more like a risk for ocd circles it doesn't matter if you had one,five or none
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Me too but hang in there this will pass it always does
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I thought things were improving earlier. I've felt that so many times but then suddenly, I go back to square one again. It's horrible. I'm getting CBT soon so hopefully that will be the beginning of recovery. I've had this for way to long now :(
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@ocdcarleigh Hey how long have you had this for? I’ve had it for a while and I want to go to the doctors but I’m too scared.
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Oh god I feel for you. I worry though because I’ve only had HOCD since the end of 2014/start of 2015 and sometimes TOCD (I’m not diagnosed either so I don’t even know if it’s OCD). A thought that always come back to me is why I’ve never had any other ‘themes’ because I see a lot of people who have had other themes as well and I just think if I’ve only ever had HOCD and I’ve had it for 5 years nearly then it’s probably not OCD because I don’t worry about harm or POCD. So I’m too scared to go to the doctors.
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Also I hope everything goes well for you at your CBT?
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My theme has been pretty consistent (harm) and actually one big reoccurring thought that scares me the most :( I think OCD finds whatever scares you the most and just keeps using it. It’s awful. Hugs
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Thank you for that
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That's why there's no cure for ocd yet but there is cure for ocd themes,ocd is like a possibility foe ocd themes,the fact that you only had one doesn't mean you don't have ocd
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My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
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Don't panic, you're still the same girl, your OC gives you a lot of intrusive thoughts that aren't you and that disgust you and scare you and that you don't want and that you don't think are true, and your OC gives you the false feelings.Also, don't forget that whatever comes to mind, whatever intrusive thoughts you have and whatever you feel, is all yours.
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I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort
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