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It’s called “checking” and a lot of us on here have it. Do you arrange things just perfect or line things up “just right” and in order? You obsess about it not felling just right and the compulsive behavior is to switch it on and off until it feels “just right”. Obsessive/compulsive disorder. It’s a brain disorder and that’s ok. We’re all here to help!
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Im so sorry to hear youve been struggling for so long. Congratulations for being courageous and coming on here and trying to do what you can to take care of your health. Your love and concern for your daughter can be a great motivation for you as you strive towards conquering your OCD symptoms. We all need a motivation. I used to experience that “just right” feeling with compulsions, but I dont so much anymore. It is possible for it to fade away! Id highly recommend looking for an OCD knowledgeable MFT, LCSW, PsyD, or psychiatrist (all therapists essentially) who is under your insurance plan and make an appointment with them! Self help can be powerful, but I think the biggest strives towards recovery will come with professional help. The therapist will also provide you with ways to approach teaching your daughter about OCD and why she shouldn’t mimic your actions, which is certainly a difficult thing to approach. I hope this helps and I hope you start to feel better soon!
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Hey thanks ❤️ I’m terrified of seeking helping tho from a doctor or other medical professionals .i just have this horrid feeling they will mark me down as a “ mum that can’t cope “ I don’t have insurance plan so I guess a docter would be my only way
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Youre welcome!! Telling your doctor or preferred medical provider that youre concerned you may have OCD and that its causing you alot of distress is the perfect place to start. You can ask them about treatment options that would be possible for you without insurance. And they certainly wont mark you down as a mom who cant cope!! OCD is a very well established and common mental concern that millions of people experience, and there is reliable and proven treatment that works! You just have to be brave enough to reach out and take that first step towards finally finding the peace and relief that you deserve. If seeing a doctor isnt possible for you, try looking up free OCD support groups near you. Perhaps there are some nearby!
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No I don’t line things up as such .. it’s more in the way I do things ..it’s hard to explain.. but let’s say for instance I’m turning the light on .i have to touch the switch to the left .and some times I’ll do it with one finger .but then I go back ..I should of done it with two .. and so on .. or if I’m changing the bed .I’m forever changing what was the sheet should go .its hard to explain ?
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Yes I have looked up support groups they appear to be in London the ? I’m an hour away or so from all the ones I have found
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Hi. I found this website through listening to a podcast. I am undiagnosed OCD, but I am absolutely sure I've got it, and I'm really struggling. I feel lonely and my head will literally not give me a moment's peace. It all started a year ago. I have always been the anxious type, but a really intrusive/alarming thought randomly entered my head - it wasn't intrusive/alarming in the sense of distressing explicit content (as I know this is common with OCD), it was intrusive & alarming in regards to the future and a worse case scenario happening. I spiralled from here and over a year later I'm really struggling in this same spiral. I have to check things constantly. If I can't check, I become quickly distressed. But, even if I can check, sometimes it's not enough and I still doubt and become distressed. I am CONSTANTLY scanning for danger - no matter how small, or insignificant. I am CONSTANTLY pre-occupied by worse case scenario and I try and plan repeatedly in my head 'just in case'. I replay the past in my head on a constant loop trying to desperately remember if I did/didn't do something. I then 'test' myself by trying to remember things that I can check in the here and now - if I get it wrong, I become pre-occupied and distressed. I'm very vigilant about 'covering any tracks' where I could have 'slipped up', e.g. did I send that text to the right person? Or fully believing that my phone has malfunctioned and has sent stuff to people who I wouldn't want to see it. I then check and recheck. I have urges to straighten things, touch things etc. when my brain tells me to so that I stay 'safe'. Every OCD incident, pattern etc. I have a real need to share and seek reassurance from friends and family, but not only do I realise that ultimately this reinforces my OCD, friends and family are fed up and have a 'what now?' attitude. It's so lonely and I want to beat OCD once and for all. It's an absolutely miserable way to live.
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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