Hey guys ..I’m new to this . Had OCD since I was about 10 . I’m now 31 . Never ever have I ever admitted it before .but I’m a mum now and I’m terrified she will pick up my traits.i recent told a close friend of mine but that’s it .no one else . I dunno what I after really . A good start would be to know I’m not the only one out there .my OCD isn’t cleaning ..it’s the way I do things .. like how I turn a light switch impacts my whole day if “ it doesn’t feel right “ I do it over and over till it does .but the problem is .it never does !

It’s called “checking” and a lot of us on here have it. Do you arrange things just perfect or line things up “just right” and in order? You obsess about it not felling just right and the compulsive behavior is to switch it on and off until it feels “just right”. Obsessive/compulsive disorder. It’s a brain disorder and that’s ok. We’re all here to help!

Im so sorry to hear youve been struggling for so long. Congratulations for being courageous and coming on here and trying to do what you can to take care of your health. Your love and concern for your daughter can be a great motivation for you as you strive towards conquering your OCD symptoms. We all need a motivation. I used to experience that “just right” feeling with compulsions, but I dont so much anymore. It is possible for it to fade away! Id highly recommend looking for an OCD knowledgeable MFT, LCSW, PsyD, or psychiatrist (all therapists essentially) who is under your insurance plan and make an appointment with them! Self help can be powerful, but I think the biggest strives towards recovery will come with professional help. The therapist will also provide you with ways to approach teaching your daughter about OCD and why she shouldn’t mimic your actions, which is certainly a difficult thing to approach. I hope this helps and I hope you start to feel better soon!

Hey thanks ❤️ I’m terrified of seeking helping tho from a doctor or other medical professionals .i just have this horrid feeling they will mark me down as a “ mum that can’t cope “ I don’t have insurance plan so I guess a docter would be my only way

Youre welcome!! Telling your doctor or preferred medical provider that youre concerned you may have OCD and that its causing you alot of distress is the perfect place to start. You can ask them about treatment options that would be possible for you without insurance. And they certainly wont mark you down as a mom who cant cope!! OCD is a very well established and common mental concern that millions of people experience, and there is reliable and proven treatment that works! You just have to be brave enough to reach out and take that first step towards finally finding the peace and relief that you deserve. If seeing a doctor isnt possible for you, try looking up free OCD support groups near you. Perhaps there are some nearby!

No I don’t line things up as such .. it’s more in the way I do things ..it’s hard to explain.. but let’s say for instance I’m turning the light on .i have to touch the switch to the left .and some times I’ll do it with one finger .but then I go back ..I should of done it with two .. and so on .. or if I’m changing the bed .I’m forever changing what was the sheet should go .its hard to explain ?

Yes I have looked up support groups they appear to be in London the ? I’m an hour away or so from all the ones I have found