Is it worth being here if I’m so unhappy and struggling with my self and everything in my life? When I’m this hateful scum? I just feel awful and wish I didn’t have to put up with this, or myself. I’m sorry
Hey there… I know it’s hard dealing with OCD. I was in a similar dark place feeling like my life was over & I absolutely HATED where I was at. It was horrible and I felt sick inside. But I promise you that, with the proper treatment and ERP, your response to OCD will get better. I haven’t done OCD therapy yet, but through practicing basic ERP and connecting with others and taking care of my health more, I was able to go from a dark place to enjoying my life. Yes it relapses at times, but happiness is possible. It’s always worth it to here. You’re worth the fight to be here because you have a life time of joy and friendships and passions to pursue… even if it doesn’t feel possible at the moment. I’ve felt that darkness and I’m here now, in a much better place— and I know you can be too. I’m cheering you on! Please let me know if there’s anything I can advise you with to help you feel better. You are loved. ❤️
@bumblebee_bumbling Thank you :) i appreciate your kindness and support. Even if it’s hard, it’s nice to know wonderful people like you are out there who understand and want to help
I promise you are not your OCD. OCD tries to make us forget who we are and whether this is all worth it. It messes with our heads in every way possible. It’s the doubting disorder. But you are you, and you are loved, needed, and deserving of the knowledge that you can and will get relief and be so glad that you’re still here. That’s coming from personal experience. Please use an emergency resource if feeling suicidal. You deserve to be here. ❤️
@Anonymous Thank you :) truly it means a lot. I feel crappy and don’t want to exist but thankfully I’m not planning to hurt myself or take my life. It’s hard but I have too many people who care about me and I can’t leave them. Thank you for being here, you made me feel better. I hope you’re doing ok too, take care of yourself
hey there, i really feel for you and what you're going through. i don't have the same kind of obsessions as you with pure o, but the struggle with ocd is something i totally get. remember, your thoughts are not who you are, and you're definitely not scum for having them, no matter how much they make you feel that way. i'm right here if you need someone to just listen. 😌 on another note, my therapist told me about this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" at www.AIOCDtool.com. i think it could be a solid help for you, especially when things feel super overwhelming. it's like having a mini ocd therapist in your pocket. you just type in what's bugging you and it guides you through steps to manage those intrusive thoughts. i'm not into promoting apps either, but this isn't about that – it's genuinely been a game-changer for me. if you've got any questions or wanna chat about it, i'm all ears. hope it can offer you some relief like it did for me. 🌟
Feeling pretty bad right now, had a thought what if I drive purposefully in to oncoming traffic. And then it was like I was almost telling myself to do it! I hate this so much I hate me! I can’t see me getting past this. I’m sorry this post is scary, it terrifies me. I keep trying to tell myself you don’t want to hurt someone or yourself! But when I say that to myself I can’t even trust myself I feel like I doubt myself. I question do these thoughts scare me? Are they unwanted? I’m suffering so much please help. I’m trying to keep it together, I really am. Holding back tears on the daily.
Just got off the phone with my after hours therapy center. I’m trying not to ruminate or seek reassurance, but even after I spoke with the therapist I can’t help but worry that I’m not just or moral enough. I asked if I should turn myself in, and they said no. I wish I could enjoy the holidays but I’m by myself right now and I’m going through a familiar thought process of the world would be a better place if I had been a different person. I’ve been feeling depressed and thinking about different ways in which I’m inadequate and incompetent. I can’t seem to figure out how I’m actually worthwhile. I don’t know if I’ll ever get out of this, my mental illnesses and my current failures at my work and internship. I’m sorry this all sounds dark and I don’t feel like being drastic. Rather I just feel extremely stuck. Kind of like, oh shoot I’m not someone anyone likes and I’m unfortunately a waste of oxygen.
Another vent I’m so sorry! I just come to realize that I feel like I’m the only one struggling and doing this to myself. It sucks because I look at the people around and I wish I could be like them. I don’t want to be obsessive. I don’t want these thoughts and worries. Realizing this is forever sucks. I’m crying again. I’m always crying because I’m such an emotional person. I hate it. It’s so funny because everytime I always feel like I’m doing better like no crying and stuff but it only last a couple weeks or days. I just don’t know if I can live a fulfilling life.
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