Merry Christmas Eve! If anyone has anything they want to talk about, or if you want to vent or anything, I will listen :) If you need anything specific out of a conversation, let me know!
Thank you so much! Definitely struggling with Religious Scrupulosity today (fears about salvation). I went to a church service with my parents and was triggered during the service and the altar call. I am trying to trust God, but I have so much fear and intrusive emotions coming up and I just want to enjoy Christmas celebrating Him like I have done and was excited about.
I hear you. I know salvation fears are super hard -- I've had those fears quite a bit. I understand.
@Anonymous Thank you so much for your support. You have helped me not feel so alone. God bless, truly! These fears are so scary. I have been so irritable to everyone because I am struggling. I just don’t feel like myself at all and want to get through Christmas, which is not like me. I guess I just have to let go, say “maybe” to the thoughts/fears and trust God that He’s got me.
@brownr7 No prob. Glad I could help! :) I understand why you're feeling irritable. Me too honestly; I've been super irritable, not just because of OCD, but also because of other hard things going on for me. And yes, those types of fears are very scary. It's okay to not feel like being very invested in Christmas this year. Having a chill Christmas (pun intended) can sometimes be what we prefer. I'm sorry you don't feel like yourself. I often don't feel like myself either. Yeah, accepting uncertainty is the way to go with OCD. But have grace with yourself -- your feelings and fears aren't absurd, but understandable. Although, it doesn't mean that they're true, of course, and you still need to work on treating OCD. And yes, trust in God, and again, have grace with yourself.
i’m struggling a lot with socd and hocd thoughts today. it doesn’t help that i’m feeling upset about not doing anything with family for christmas. so im having kind of a hard time reminding myself that my thoughts are just thoughts there’s no action that needs to happen or that will happen
Yeah, I hear you. Hard to ground yourself right now, huh? Maybe it would help to do something to get out of your head -- focus on something else for a moment, maybe do something you enjoy or just listen to some peaceful music. Either way, I'm sorry. I'm here for you if you need me -- today or tomorrow. Did you want to do something with family and are unable to?
@Anonymous Yeah grounding is difficult right now. I appreciate it. I actually actively choose not to avoid my family members cause I know that’s just a compulsion. I’m just struggling a lot with my doubts
@kodyisland I'm sorry you're struggling with doubts. If you want to tell me more about what kind of doubts, I'll listen. It's good of you to try to not do compulsions! But sometimes if something is too triggering, I personally don't think it's a bad idea to take a break, but I know that people's opinions on that differ
@Anonymous It’s just like i have a thought and then im like okay is that real or intrusive you know?
@kodyisland and its especially bad at night time cause i get worried that im not gonna be able to sleep and will be having thoughts
@kodyisland Ok. I understand, I hear you. Did you say you were unable to do things with family for Christmas?
@Anonymous yeah we were originally supposed to go to florida but i got covid and we couldnt go. so were not celebrating with family until next weekend
@kodyisland Ok. Well, I'm glad you still get to see them! Sorry you got covid. I hope you're feeling okay. I understand if you are still upset about not seeing family on Christmas. Sometimes I get upset about that type of stuff too. I know it doesn't fix it, but maybe you could text/call/have a zoom meeting with them.
@Anonymous *on Christmas you could text/call I meant*
@Anonymous yeah maybe. i think it just upset me which kinda triggered an socd thought and i got caught up in is that just intrusive or a real thought that i need to seek help for
@kodyisland Okay, I understand.
Thank you, I’m struggling with false memory, harm ocd and POCD. I think I raped two of my friends and had sexual contact with a newborn baby. It’s killing me. The thought that I did any of those things kills me to the very core. Its disgusting. It makes me hate myself and not want to keep going. But I’m trying to keep going, I’m trying
I know how hard it can be to get the motivation to keep going. I often don't want to keep going either. Sometimes it feels like I just get by. I hear you and understand how you're feeling.
@Anonymous Thank you so much 🥹
@izabela’socd No prob. :) I wish the best for you. And don't forget to have grace with yourself. And I'm sorry you're feeling this way, buddy.
I have really bad health OCD and last night I had some kind of stomach bug and was sick all night. Now I’m terrified of going to sleep because of getting sick again. As a result, I’m afraid I’m going to ruin Christmas because I might panic and try to go to the ER. I just reallllllly need a good night, restful sleep 😭
I'm sorry. I hate it when I get a bug and get sick at night! Just a little while ago I got sick and woke up very ill, I actually canceled a session I had scheduled that day. I hope you're feeling better now though. Your fear of sleeping tonight is understandable. I don't know exactly what will help, so take my suggestions with a grain of salt. But I might recommend doing something calming or listening to calming music or nature sounds, if you think you need it. And of course if you need to talk again later, that's fine -- I usually stay up late anyway. 😆 (Although generally I would recommend looking at screens sparingly around bed time and using a blue light filter) I also understand how you feel about not wanting to ruin Christmas. Not trying to give you reassurance, but it's alright if things don't go perfectly for Christmas. Stressing about making Christmas as good as possible is just going to put stress on you. And I know how you feel about really needing a good night's sleep. But there's only so much you can do about it, so try not to put too much stress on yourself. You've just got to do what you can, and try to enjoy yourself. I'm sorry, I probably don't have a lot of things I can say to make you feel better, but I am always open to listening and hearing you out :)
@Anonymous I just wanted to say you are doing a good thing. Giving someone peace of mind even for a moment ,is wonderful. I hope you find some peace tonight as well . Merry Christmas to you 😌
@Mandy2814 It's the least I could do. Listening doesn't take a lot of effort in most cases, but it's important. I just feel like there's so much more for me to learn about how to listen to others. And Merry Christmas to you!
I’m struggling so badly with something that happened years ago, I saw a message that my bf sent to one girl from his work, the text just said “heeyy” and that’s it but he sent it after he went to a nightclub with his work-friends including this girl. So I think that text means he cheated on me with her because I can’t think on another motive why he would text her at that weird time, he texted her at early morning after he arrived home from the nightclub.
I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I hear you. It's certainly not an easy thing to be feeling...
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