Confused?

I feel like we're all just alone in our heads.. you get what I mean? like we're more scared and lonely in our head than we our around people

Thank you for offering to be here I really appreciate that I think what I'm finding the most difficult at the moment is the realization that I've never really been the type to seek approval from others but just recently when things when down in life, I felt more insecure around people i wanna befriend or am friends with

@Ella_ Rose Had the same thing earlier this year. Found out I had odd. Lost a friend and was on a rebound phase all at the same time. I think I just wanted to fill a void. Took a while for my emotions to side with my rationalising but it got there in the end

@Invalid I'm glad to hear everything turned out alright in the end I guess that's what I need to do? Give myself some time?... But I fear I'm running out of time cuz it's my 5th year feeling this way... plus another year just around the corner*sigh :/

nah that's alright why 'Invalid' tho? why not valid?

@Ella_ Rose All the names I was trying to use were "invalid usernames".😬

@Invalid go for Valid_User and add up your favorite number in front of it, if you'd like to : )

@Ella_ Rose I'd honestly want to but people on the app now know be by this user name and I don't want to lose that. Maybe if I had a profile pic they got used to then changed it in time after that

@Invalid Come on! I just suggested a username. You don't really have to! It's really okay. How are you, tho? How's Christmas been this year?

@Ella_ Rose I'll change it. Invalid I guess is negative. Well I was looking forward to an ocd free Xmas because I hit remission then illnesses work issues and injuries all happened in quick succession. Work stuff I know how to deal with but when I'm too ill or can't physically do my coping mechanisms I was screwed and just a sitting duck for my ocd. It came back 😣 making changes though so I can removed myself from these situations so that they rarely come up again. I just dunno what to do when I can't move because of pain 😬 hopefully I've sorted it out but if can't boost my serotonin, I need something else

@Invalid However you like it better :) Oh no ... I completely understand how's it been for you.. I'm somewhat going through the same problem eh ocd becomes so must worse when you're physically unwell and man it sure is a headache to get through these difficult times... Are you taking medicines for the pain and ocd? I take Prozac and it really calms my mind at times like these. Try eating eggs, cheese, pineapples, tofu, salmon, nuts and seeds it really helps boost serotonin I hope these help you, stay strong, you'll make it!

@Ella_ Rose Painkillers didn't work unfortunately. I had appendicitis a few years back and that pain was a 10/10, this pain was a close 9/10. I guess with the food to boost serotonin might be good. Like serotonin snacks maybe as I couldn't move to cook. As for needs, a refuse to take them. I believe they help you control your mood but then become reliant on them. I don't want to rely on something external to control myself. I'll walk through hell again to get better before I rely on meds. I've done it before. As for the user name, I had a dream years ago that I felt was a message. I've had a few in my life but its stuck with me over the years. It was a raven but with a wolf's head telling me to watch where I was going. Seeing them together is a good omen for success in an upcoming battle in norse culture. I found out a few years ago I descend for norse royalty so maybe that meant something? I gave it meaning if it didn't have one. Wolf bird? Omen? I'm rubbish with names 😬

@Invalid As for meds*

@Invalid This is sad... try connecting to a doctor if things are this tough Do take good care of yourself, I pray you get better soon. Yes ordering from out would be a good option for now. I somewhat agree with you, one shouldn't be dependent on meds and must learn to control themselves without such things. But I also believe that if someone is at higher risk of s*lf h*rm (which I have been) then taking help from meds isn't that bad until and unless your dose isn't that high. However, do as you feel right, okay? if meds isn't something you wanna go for then let it be. I feel like your willpower is enough to help you control yourself! Stay strong, you got this. Ah that's an interesting dream there. It does has a beautiful meaning to it! I love cracking meaning of such dreams as well. But oh boy I mostly get nightmares 🤦🏻‍♀️ How about 'Wolfram' ? it's Germanic origin and is composed as 'wolf' + 'hrafn'.

@Ella_ Rose I completely agree meds should be used as a lifeline if they're drowning in mental health issues. Thanks for your feedback, I really appreciate it. I'll follow you on this app if that's OK. I've seen a few of your comments and they always mean well

@Invalid Oh that's alright, I'm glad I could help! I'm Ella btw and by what name would you like me to call you? Wait you can follow people on here? 🗿 bruh I really need to update this app now so I can follow you back

@Ella_ Rose I'm levi. Call me whatever you want

@Invalid Hello Levi, it has been really nice talking to you. I've followed you back!

@Ella_ Rose Cheers, likewise . I'll try help you where I can too

@Invalid Yayyyy! let's begin right now, shall we? Help me find the follow button for other users as well 🥲 I can't spot it even after the update : (

@Ella_ Rose Changed it. Liked the name. Thanks 😊

@Ella_ Rose Click on the dots on the top right of a comment and it should come up with a submenu with the option to follow etc

@Wolfram Aww it looks good, I'm glad you liked it!!

@Wolfram I've got it, thanks for helping out💜

yeah I get that