Merry Christmas! - Does anybody need/wish to talk?

I'm sorry. I know they can seem very real and terrifying. I'm sorry you're feeling afraid. If you want to tell me more about it, I'm listening. But you're not alone, and I know how bad it can feel

Thank you. Merry Christmas to you too!

I'm sorry you're going through this. I've never dated either, but probably don't have as much cultural pressure to -- just the pressure of hearing people talk about how great it is. I know that SOOCD is hard to go through. I hear you. And I know it seems hard to navigate. I have a hard time navigating too. Glad you're doing well, and I'm sorry you're going through this -- I'm here for you

That's very understandable. I'm glad you had a good day. My thoughts make me depressed too, and I can completely change my mood in an instant. If you need to vent, I'll listen :)

@Anonymous It’s like everyday I wake up wanting it to be a better day, I make an effort to go out and buy coffee then read a good book I am thankful that I can do this but the thoughts are there even if I don’t engage in compulsion its there in my memory and they are very horrible thoughts I feel like I am not human sometimes.. when I go out and see the other people living there life and the other girls just happy without the need to take two medicines like me and a mood stabilizer I feel so alone like no one there can understand me.. also I was once very spiritual but lost my faith.. it all looks out of this world.. thank you again for listening 🙏

@Loranqadri I'm sorry. It's a daily battle, and it's hard, but I hear you. I have a lot of daily struggles. And to remind you, everybody has their own struggles, even if it doesn't seem like it. People can't tell, they think I'm fine, but I feel awful inside. But I hear you. I'm glad you are trying to do things and not let OCD take over. I try to do that too, but I get it, I still feel bad at the end of the day. Honestly, I haven't felt the same since 2020, it just kind of follows me. If you think rumination could be an issue, here's an article you could read. You can take it with a grain of salt. https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ And I'm sorry you feel alone. I might understand how you're feeling. In some ways, I know I do. I'm sorry you lost your faith. Faith and OCD are very difficult. I feel very similar, it's super hard on my faith. Would you like to tell me more about that?

@Anonymous Yes, thank you again for listening, I went to sleep last night.. I am a muslim, my family is not religious but as I grew up I was very attracted to the religion and the Quraan our holy book, I even memorised half of it and never missed a prayer, simply after trauma I felt angry about the way the world is run, and I researched a bit in the religion and I found exegesis that I did not like, also I began to think about the other religions.. I felt angry at God I think.. oh and before the trauma I wrote a thesis in islamic philosophy so it was a huge part of myself… right now I feel lost, thanks again for listening.. I accurately remember the moment I lost my faith I was about to give a lesson on islam in the university.. I felt shattered, right now I try to put the faith aside and focus on living with the harm ocd.

@Loranqadri Mmhmm... I know how hard it is to have religious struggles and to doubt one's faith, and on top of that have OCD to work through. I'm upset about my own religious things, so I understand how hard that can be. And like I said before, if I say something that sounds like the conversation might logically be over but you still have stuff to say, I'm still listening; sometimes I just don't have much to add. Anyway, I hear you.