I feel so weird these days. Like I feel blank empty person with no emotions. I mean i still do get anxiety here and there but like no emotions or guilt. I see scary movies and feel no reaction, I imagine hurting other and don’t feel any guilt more like the idgaf typa feeling, before I would be in mental torture crying and depressed about being scared I was a serial killer. I would break down but no I feel urges still by no anxiety or anything. I feel mental and crazy. I would be so excited to wear makeup and excited about impressing guys and dating, but now they don’t seem real to me. Before I would care about OCD and now I’m more like idgaf anymore or what I do. What is going on ?! Am I the only one experiencing this.?

Are you on antidepressants? Also, it sounds like it could be depression as well, but I ask about the antidepressants because they are known to have some of those kind of effects on people. I would recommend talking to your therapist about this if you are currently seeing one.

I always wondered why most of the time I just felt "nothing" when I should be having some sort of emotional response to something. I couldn't even feel bad about not feeling!? I thought it was just me.

I’ve experienced the same, when a person goes through ocd they emotional numbness, which is normal especially when you feel axioms and sad a lot, I recommend which I am on now, which has helped me because I was going through the same numbness and my emotion are returning it’s a serotonin drug called Paxol

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Hey, I get the same way sometimes. For me, I think it’s just depression.

Nope! Never been on any anti depressants. Im Strictly against anti depressant. Sure I feel Sad but I’m still able to go to work and eat and laugh. It’s this super weird feeling like I feel like a robot. My brain feels weird. Like one time I was yelling and arguing with my mom I couldn’t get mad. Like I was screaming but I felt empty inside

Also I really don’t want meds! Please help what do I do!!!

@Naeun — what resources are you using? I know you’ve been to see a psychiatrist but didn’t want meds. Are you seeing a therapist? Have you bought any books or other resources to help you treat your OCD? I know you don’t support antidepressants but I think you need to take a look at the evidence for them verses your grandfather’s individual experience. Take a look at the worksheet I just posted to 0823’s post about medication fears. I don’t mean to pressure you into doing something you don’t want but SSRIs definitely make the road to recovery MUCH easier and no supplements have been found effective in the same way.

@worrieddriver hey! I went to my psychiatrist and told her and she said moderate OCD but the place doesn’t specialize in OCD. So I still have to make an appointment at the place with OCD therapist but college started and I don’t have any time! But the past three/four days intrusive thoughts have been super minimal! But sometimes I sit next to a person and I still get super gross horrific thoughts but no anxiety?!! And I said I’ll try meds as my last resort. Side effects are horrible and I’m emotionally scarred about my grandpa. Idk what to do? Can you please also post the worksheet here as well? Can’t find his post

I ended cancelling my whole visitation at the previous hospital smh! So I have to find another place that does

https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-worksheet/socratic-questioning