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Are you on antidepressants? Also, it sounds like it could be depression as well, but I ask about the antidepressants because they are known to have some of those kind of effects on people. I would recommend talking to your therapist about this if you are currently seeing one.
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I always wondered why most of the time I just felt "nothing" when I should be having some sort of emotional response to something. I couldn't even feel bad about not feeling!? I thought it was just me.
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I’ve experienced the same, when a person goes through ocd they emotional numbness, which is normal especially when you feel axioms and sad a lot, I recommend which I am on now, which has helped me because I was going through the same numbness and my emotion are returning it’s a serotonin drug called Paxol
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I believe I spelt that right
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Anxious*
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Hey, I get the same way sometimes. For me, I think it’s just depression.
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Nope! Never been on any anti depressants. Im Strictly against anti depressant. Sure I feel Sad but I’m still able to go to work and eat and laugh. It’s this super weird feeling like I feel like a robot. My brain feels weird. Like one time I was yelling and arguing with my mom I couldn’t get mad. Like I was screaming but I felt empty inside
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Also I really don’t want meds! Please help what do I do!!!
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@Naeun — what resources are you using? I know you’ve been to see a psychiatrist but didn’t want meds. Are you seeing a therapist? Have you bought any books or other resources to help you treat your OCD? I know you don’t support antidepressants but I think you need to take a look at the evidence for them verses your grandfather’s individual experience. Take a look at the worksheet I just posted to 0823’s post about medication fears. I don’t mean to pressure you into doing something you don’t want but SSRIs definitely make the road to recovery MUCH easier and no supplements have been found effective in the same way.
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@worrieddriver hey! I went to my psychiatrist and told her and she said moderate OCD but the place doesn’t specialize in OCD. So I still have to make an appointment at the place with OCD therapist but college started and I don’t have any time! But the past three/four days intrusive thoughts have been super minimal! But sometimes I sit next to a person and I still get super gross horrific thoughts but no anxiety?!! And I said I’ll try meds as my last resort. Side effects are horrible and I’m emotionally scarred about my grandpa. Idk what to do? Can you please also post the worksheet here as well? Can’t find his post
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I ended cancelling my whole visitation at the previous hospital smh! So I have to find another place that does
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Around 10 years ago when I started getting violent OCD intrusive thoughts, I also started fearing that I was a sociopath. I began overanalyzing everything — especially my emotions. It's like if I could prove I had emotions it proved I wasn't a sociopath. I care deeply about my family — I worry about them, I want them to be safe and happy, I want them to get theit deepest desires — but I don’t know what love "feels" like, if its supposed to feel like anything. People describe love as this warm, obvious, fuzzy emotion, but I don’t experience it the way I think I’m supposed to. Is it supposed to be intense? Constant? Loud? Because I’m not sure I’ve ever felt that. My family isn’t very emotionally expressive either. I cherish hugs from them when I get them, I initiate most hugs with my parents (but I don't like hugs from other people, like co workers) but overall my family doesnt show affection much, and that’s made me question if I’m even capable of love. I overanalyze my feelings constantly — especially after realizing I don’t feel connected to God in the way my old church said I should. I don’t love God. I don’t feel anything toward Him — we’ve never met obviously so I just never got a connection with Him. But growing up, that felt like a sin in itself. As a teen, I felt ashamed knowing I cared more for my parents than for God, especially when church messages said God had to come first. There’s a song by Mary Mary that says, “I love you more than my mother, my father…” and it used to make me feel broken. My feelings were in direct contradiction with what I was taught, and that shame never fully left me. OCD latched onto that hard. It’s only after a coworker passed away — and I found myself crying multiple times over it — that I realized I do care deeply for people. But even that realization felt pathetic. Why did I need such an extreme moment to feel something “real”? & why didn't I care for another creepy bigoted co worker when his son was sick? I felt nothing. I’m scared my OCD is convincing me that I’m heartless, even though I want connection. I crave love. I like hugs. It’s exhausting and terrifying to doubt my own humanity like this. I hate this fear. I hate that I don’t trust myself. I hate that OCD makes me question my morality, my emotions — everything that makes me me. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? How do I even explain this to a therapist
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I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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I’m really anxious because I know my ocd is really bad right now so I shouldn’t try to figure it out cause my thinking is a mess but I’ve been having feelings of like I’m not sure if I love him anymore or worrying that I haven’t felt a lot like numb (a lot because ocd has been getting worse and worse) and thinking of like how I’ve been focusing on the negatives and only been looking at him through that lens and analyzing and also feeling like I don’t want this anymore. Basically just like negative thinking in feeling like I’m really scared it’s that it’s I don’t love him cause I don’t want it to be over and the thought of having someone replace him makes me ill. But like it feels like I’m not seeing him how I used to and it makes me upset. Today I was near someone I was like oh this person is cute and then I was thinking that the possibility of meeting someone new sounds exciting and now I’m freaking out because this in combination with feeling like maybe I don’t love him anymore is bad. Also my thoughts keep changing. and like sometimes it feels like I don’t care at all and this has happened but like worst it’s ever been and then other times I’m like I do care I do still feel. I’m just really anxious has anyone else felt this before and it was still ocd? 😭😭
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