I have the urge to hurt myself and I don’t know if it’s me or my ocd honestly I feel crazy and not in control of how I feel.my thoughts keep racing.i want to cry but I’m not a cryer so I’m just keeping it in
I get the same way, you’re not alone. Some stuff that helps me when i feel strong panic and a self harm urge is putting my hands or face in super cold water, or put ice cubes in my hand, cold shower, or put it in your mouth etc. whatever works for you, experiment! also, icing your vagus nerve helps slow down your heart rate and breathing and signals your body to calm down. It helps me come back into my body and feel a sense of control. Also, crying can feel really good! You don’t need to hold it in. Everyone cries, and it is okay to feel your emotions. it’s best to let go sometimes and cry so it doesn’t feel like it is just building up :) hope this helps, and remember, you are not alone. You will find something that works for you, trial and error. I would recommend going to a therapist-they can give you ideas and techniques. :) it really helps me.
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You’re not alone! Its gonna take work to get better but you will get better in time. When I was experiencing those thoughts I felt the exact same way. You’re not crazy and the fact that you feel so strongly about it proves that you dont want to act on it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. And its okay to cry and sometimes crying can help you regulate how you feel and bring a sense of relief. If you can try to do something you enjoy to temporarily occupy your mind.
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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