I am convinced I have schizophrenia

The past month has been hell for me, I can’t express it enough Every day I live with the fear that I have schizophrenia/am hallucinating 1. Sometimes to hear my name being called from downstairs, even though my mom never called me 2. Sometimes hear random noises (idk if they r real or not, just makes me panic again) 3. Sometimes have little visual disturbances 4. OCD got worse Idk wtf to do, I am 100% sure I am in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia

FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm dealing with this right now as well pretty intensely. I'll leave you with these 2 things: TRIGGER WARNING - talk about schizophrenia symptoms 1) Schizophrenia requires more than just hallucinations. There are plenty of disorders disorders you could have that are causing you to have hallucinations, but that doesn't mean it's schizophrenia. Could be bipolar, could be a psychotic disorder brought on by another underlying illness, could be absolutely nothing at all. But the fact that you have schizophrenia based on what you wrote here is unlikely. 2) Do. Not. Google. Anything. Things like Google, Reddit, Quora, even posts in here can make things worse for you. My OCD brain is like a sponge, so when I learn new information that should calm me down, I find it actually ramps up my fear and makes it worse. For example, I used to fear schitzophrenia only in relation to hallucinations. Once I learned schizophrenia also involves disorganized thoughts and speech as well as catatonia (long periods of not moving) I felt better for 1 day because I didn't experience those things, but then I started freaking out when I was tired and misspoke because that seemed like "disorganized speech" to me. I couldn't sit down to watch a movie without kicking my legs every 30 seconds because I was afraid if I sat still for too long that I was catatonic. It made me worse the more knowledge I gained. Now, if youbwant to use this as an exposure, then fine. But don't try to get answers and certainty by looking things up because it *will* make you worse. 3) my only bit of slight reassurance I'll give you (because I could be wrong, I'm not a Dr.) is that people with schizophrenia are unable to diagnose themselves. Their brains do not work the way a "normal" (hate that word) brain does, so it is incapable of knowing it is schizophrenic. So this fear is actually a pretty good sign that you aren't. You could be, but it isn't likely.

FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

3 things, oops

hr247

Date posted: 1y ago

@aquamarinoo do you ever mishear or hear someone calling you from somewhere

FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@ocdposting I think this is a pretty common phenomenon, but at the end of the day it doesn't really matter if I do or don't. Asking for reassurance won't make you not have schizophrenia if you already do. You can sit with the discomfort. You are stronger than OCD thoughts.

Heatheart

Date posted: 1y ago

You may not have it but focusing on whether you have it isn’t helping your OCD at all. Sometimes I always gotta know the WHY or answer behind it. See if you can reach out to a therapist or watch videos on schizophrenia and see if you relate less than you actually do.

Tee81

Date posted: 1y ago

This should have a trigger warning

FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

It does

Tee81

Date posted: 1y ago

@aquamarinoo On my end it doesn’t show 🤷🏻‍♀️

FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Tee81 Oh no! I'm so sorry about that! I typed it in big letters very close to the top of my comment but I apologize if I upset you in any way, that certainly wasn't my intent.

Tee81

Date posted: 1y ago

@aquamarinoo No worries. I’m okay with the post.

niknicole

Date posted: 24w ago

._.

Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.

alondrahuaman

Date posted: 24w ago

I am so scared and alone.

Hi everyone. So recently I have been feeling so scared and paranoid of going crazy. I am terrified of i will go crazy and turn schizo. I’m so hyper aware of everything. My mind convinces me that I will end up like this but I really don’t want to.It’s my biggest fear and I think abt it almost everyday and I can’t handle it anymore. I just want to be ok. I have told my parents this and they say it’s all in my head and just laugh at me. I know it’s in my head but I physically feel sick to my stomach being constantly scared. Please someone help me please please. Thank you.

leena445

Date posted: 24w ago

im so confused

im not diagnosed, but these past two days have been terrible. i constantly have this underlying feeling that i might do something that i think is gross and i feel like i can’t do anything on my own because otherwise i might do something wrong. like i feel like i constantly have to be in front of people so that i can make sure of my every action. this is so exhausting and I’m so confused. and like i keep getting terrible images and stuff replaying in my head. i also try to recall what happened but i feel like i have false event too. i used to have religious ocd and that eventually stopped completely, but now it feels like all my work getting over that was pointless. also like i feel like i might have contamination ocd but not the typical germ type. I just get terrible images and I can’t remember if those images are true or not even though they’re impossible and i feel terrible. I don’t know if i could ever get over this because even the thought of it is terrible.

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