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Oh dear Jazzz1234? I’m so sorry to hear that! Where in the world are you from? If you’d want to, you can text me in messenger?... I work in a women’s safehouse, so I can guide you a little?
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-But no matter where you’re from in the world: I think it would be a good idea to take some emergency numbers with you all the time.. just in case you suddenly need to leave home..?!
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Hey! I am from Long Island, outside of NYC. Id rather keep my convos on here for now for confidentiality reasons. I feel like such a horrible daughter to try and beat my mom essentially. I shoved her and took a slipper at her. We are all calm now and I come home from work and me and my family are all happy and eat but there are underlying issues for years now. This is really messing with my ocd. Now I’m working 7 days a week to keep busy and get my life back to normal. My experience in the outskirts of Dubai Iike a middle eastern housewife really affected me mentally and I was in rage against the world. Before I got my big job in the city I really felt helpless and not finding a job and I looked at my mom as my enemy. Now I remember her crying the day I attacked and I really don’t feel like a good person. I had posted in here about this before and someone just said I need to seek help from an abuse hotline and can’t forgive myself yet and it triggered me off. I know I was wrong but there’s so many factors that come into play. And I feel really bad for it so I’m looking to forgive myself but I can’t.
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How are you doing these days?.. I really do think it would be best for you to talk to someone about the abuse and family issues.. I think it’s going to be very difficult to treat the OCD when there is so much going on at home...
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I’m 26 now and first got ocd at 14. I went to therapy with and without my mom for 10 years and now we have no money and I don’t have insurance yet. So I use this app in the meantime. Sometimes some answers scolding me really trigger me. I know my depression has made me violent but I don’t want to go on hating myself. Now every time my mom has a ditsy moment I obsess I did something to her head even though she dug her nails into my head and my dad has beat my head in. I’ve apologized and we’ve been ok watching shows everyday after I get home from work. I’m just really frustrated and lonely, and my mom knows how to provoke me with her words alone. It’s issues we can’t fix and it’s best I move out. The problem is I’m in debt so I need to pay that off first. I just feel like she still wants to control me like I’m a kid. She even said if I get medication that she doesn’t approve of she wants me out ASAP.
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- 21w
Has anyone else experienced something like this? I’m graduating from college soon and i have been so stressed about finding a job, signing a lease for an apartment, college ending, I have an ungodly amount of assignments to do, I have a tumultuous relationship with my mother that has recently blown up again, and so much more. I am just so overwhelmed, I snapped at my boyfriend last night. I immediately apologized but i still feel awful. One of my biggest fears is being an abusive partner and i feel like this confirms that I am one. My best friend was also there and he saw me snap at my boyfriend and I’m scared he thinks I’m awful too. He saw me apologize so maybe that makes him think differently, but i can’t know for sure. The logical side of me tells me it’s not that deep, i apologized, and it’s time to move on. But i feel like i need to apologize to my best friend too to make sure he doesn’t think im terrible, but i know thats reassurance seeking. The ocd in me is punishing myself and refusing to move on.
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- 9w
Just feel like getting it off my chest since I was little I always felt like my mom was my enemy like she was always competing with me and was always boy thirsty she never really focused on me although it was always me and her because I would never rly see my dad since they weren’t together I feel as if she was never really their it was alway other people taking care of me not her and I hold a lot of resentment towards her because I feel like she try’s to play this role of innocent mom whos kid hates her for no reason but that could be farther frm the truth she would always just focus on her bfs and whenever she would fight with them she would take it out on me or if she would see them making a bond with me she would also get mad the other day too I had memories of when I was 8-9 she would take me to her friends house who had two boys 10-11 and I remember we would always play ruff but their would be times where I remember they would bend me over and hump me and I never said anything I also remembered this one time she took me with this random lady and I only went that one time but I recall a boy who looked to be 13 like a teenager he told me to go under the bed and at the time I was very little like probably no more then 7 and I rember he started touching me and kissing me I never got rapid or anything tho but very touchy and I was telling my bf about it and I started crying because I hadn’t thought abt those things since years ago and now that I remembered I can’t forget and no one knew because I never told anyone but my bf just comforted me and hugged me but it makes me really sad and I know my mom wouldn’t care if I told her she also has kicked me out about 8 times already and we even had a cps case which she still blames me for although it was her fault and she also always does stuff just to upset me on purpose she also made fun of me bien suicidal and would joke about it with anyone she could get the chance too theirs a lot more that I could talk about for hours but this is already very long point is I hold so much anger and resentment towards her and if I’m being completely transparent I truly can say I hate her I feel so bad about it because in the end she is my mom but I can’t forgive her for the stuff she’s done to me and the stuff I’ve had to go through because of her I wish I could fix our relationship but at the same time I feel hopeless and like theirs no fixing it
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- 8w
Before I start this let me preface with this: My dad was abusive and would scream and hit me. Me and my girlfriend just came back yesterday from a long trip in the Bay, surrounded by family and getting little to no sleep, even before we went to the Bay. I had work today, a long, stressful shift. I come home and find out that not 1, but 3 of her friends are spending the night. This would be fine but they are spending the night in our small, hot, stuffy room, on the second bed. I am getting so upset. I feel like I havent had a break at all from people and I'm getting so overstimulated and angry at myself. I keep getting the visions and compulsions of screaming at them like my dad would or straight up just snapping at them. It's all in my head. There's just a pit of rage in my stomach. I don't want to hurt them but my brain wants me too. I'm so mad at myself for even thinking about this. If it wasn't 100 degrees I would have taken a walk but the heat just stresses me even more. I don't want to be my dad. Ever. He always told me that I got the darker part of his brain and inherited his mindscape, and he always said it with pride and I feel so upset.
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