NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

Laughing…

I get thoughts in my head that make me laugh out loud… a lot. I think it is my Tourette’s but yeah I’m laughing at seemingly nothing in the street on top of regular tics. I’m telling myself it is because I’ve been so mistreated I’m losing the plot. Whatever it is I am certainly self conscious about it. I also worry what people will think and I know I shouldn’t. This has been happening for a few years now so it isn’t a recent thing. I got turned down by another woman and was told to enjoy single life. At 41 after 20 years single it isn’t what I want to hear. Any thoughts?

777Q

Date posted: 1y

Personally I feel doing the best one can in maintaining your best personal health is at the very top of the list . I have been married for a very long time, but with that said 95% of all activities I do solo , marriage can be very challenging. What I am saying is being single can be fulfilling and more than ok .Mental , and physical health extremely important. Having a small pet also very beneficial 🐱🐶🐓 hey how did that chicken get in there , LOL ! Hang in there!😅

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q I know what you are saying and I have more than enjoyed being single but at 41 if it doesn’t happen now it probably never will. I’d like a child or maybe more. I need to stop letting OCD make me terrified of women and I’m doing that. Until very recently I couldn’t or wouldn’t approach anyone. I’m about to be in a position where I can provide for a child and a family. And I am still on a half dose of antipsychotics which I can wean down in two months time and they are responsible for my being overweight. I’m good looking in ideal circumstances, I know I am. I’ve done a great deal of work on me and I know the time will come. I know for me I can’t just hold it in. I need to say something once at least if I have a problem.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Congratulations on being married btw. You are very lucky.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 I don’t know how much I weigh now but I did lose 2.5 stone. I eat a vegetarian diet and three meals a day. I’m hungry before I eat too. Obviously though I have to be careful as OCD has latched onto my diet before.

777Q

Date posted: 1y

Everything for me is bittersweet, but I am thankful for what I have . My son and I have not been on speaking terms for 3 years . My daughter I have not seen since 2022 . My wife and I we don’t really see eye to eye on most things , we live opposite ends of the house ! She is a decent person but a challenging and difficult person as I am also . Do you see BITTERSWEET, LOL !

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Over 20 years I’ve built up a lot of enthusiasm and prayed so much. I’ve switched up all my habits too. I don’t really deal with friends much as they don’t ever seem to have your best interests at heart especially if you are in a relationship. My friends just want to use me of offer me drugs and that is all it ever is. I’m in an ideal situation to start a family and put my focus there. I take meds and off and on drink caffeine, that is it. I eat right, TV bores me as do games. I have put a lot of effort into my business but as long as the situation I am currently in with that pans out then I will not have very much to do from then on. I’m in a position where I can hopefully travel full time and I’d like to give someone the opportunity to do that with me. My dad was absent for eight years and I found my relationship with him very tough. My mom and I were always at each other’s throats but I loved them and when push came to shove we did right by each other. I wouldn’t sweat your disagreements too much.

777Q

Date posted: 1y

I am using 100 to 125 as the measuring of pre-diabetes for fasting blood glucose levels .But depending on the medical laboratory in different parts of the country and world those numbers for a guide could vary somewhat. While doing this intermittent fasting my fasting blood glucose has been between 95 and 102 on the most part after fasting for the 12 hours before. So I still have to work on this a little more . I was eating chocolate from leftovers from Halloween 👻 and the next day more than 12 hours later it still increased my blood glucose by doing that , everything really does matter .

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Keep trying stuff. You will keep learning that way.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q You would not believe how cold it is rn. 🥶

777Q

Date posted: 1y

I have been doing fasting for past 30 days . Intermittent. Eating and drinking in a 12 hour window each day . Working on weight , fasting blood glucose and overall mental, emotional and physical health.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q How is that going?

777Q

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 It is working out well. I am bringing my fasting blood glucose down a little bit. I do the glucose monitor myself a few times a week due to pre-diabetes. Weight I have lost 5 pounds. I feel a little better and sleep and think a little better also .

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Well done for taking care of that prediabetes. I’m always impressed when people take it in hand.

777Q

Date posted: 1y

How cold is it ? It is going up to low 60s today and cloudy in Florida. That is considered cold 🥶 for here , LOL !

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q 46.4 degrees. It isn’t UK cold but these houses have no heating and aren’t insulated. They are made to be cool in summer. It gets to be pleasant in the afternoon for a few hours.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Take care of yourself sevens.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q I think when I became ill my mom and dad put aside their differences. I mean it was a schizophrenia diagnosis back then and I was in a bad way. We started functioning better, they took care of me. When they both died I got a large inheritance from them both and now I’m putting that to good use.

777Q

Date posted: 1y

It definitely is better having true peace . Life is short . Putting differences aside is good . Sometimes a situation can bring people together more or move them further apart . My wife has not been talking to me the past 3 days , from a disagreement . She just started talking a little bit today . Men really are from Mars and Women are from Venus . It was what I thought as something relatively minor we were disagreeing about , put she threw everything into the talk but the kitchen sink , stuff unrelated from over 20 years ago , LOL !

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q It is terrible you are both in this situation. I’ve been through hard times and I do not miss them one bit. Well done for you both working through your grievances like this.

777Q

Date posted: 1y

Her mother recently passed away, I am trying to be a little more understanding with her , because people grieve in different ways and may account for some of the extra things going on with her.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@777Q Yeah, people are different when they are going through stuff like that. It is best we understand. You seem like a good couple who are good to each other. Not every relationship is a considerate one like yours.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

revxskates

Date posted: 22w

Losing it maybe lols

I came across a video that was talking about a theory and it was something me and my friend were talking about 2 years ago and were tweaking about and i was explaining it to my girlfriend just now and them i started to get anxiety about stuff not being real and my world isn’t what it seems to be and that there stuff out there and then i started to have religious OCD and then it went to how Im scared of the world being fake or suffering from a mental illness like schizophrenia or something and stuff and I’ve been having OCD about my girlfriend being a government agent or that government agents are watching me cause I’m scared of schizophrenia and thinking like them i don’t think i actually think it i kinda just go to my girlfriend isn’t a government agent which scares me into thinking i was thinking she was or gonna think she is or idk if i just saying that to bot seem insane or something but like idk if i truly believe that i doubt it i don’t believe it any other time and then i started getting stress i might hurt or maybe kill her and it scares me cause shes my everything and I’m scared of losing her idk guys I’m getting stressed hella and I’m scared of myself and my OCD I’m genuinely tired of it like anyone can ask my girlfriend and she’ll say i cant go 5 mins without ticcing (from ocd) or asking for reassurance like that life is real and thats shes real and I’m real and nothings wrongs and stuff, i probably sounds crazy lmaoo maybe and the sucky thing is i don’t have a therapist or a thingy going on for me cause i don’t have a job and or insurance let alone.

kiwicowgirl

Date posted: 18w

I’m “bad” at sex (18+)

So I got dumped today by my situationship. For background, we talked for like 3 months, and I just recently lost my virginity to her. We only had sex twice. After she said we should still be friends, goofily (reassurance-seeking) I asked “but the sex was good right?” And she told me it was “good for a virgin” which hurt my feelings, then going even further she said “not in my top ten.” This made me CRY, like on the spot, right there in front of her (not the most embarrassing thing I’ve ever done…. But definitely in my top ten). I started having intrusive thoughts about how I’m unattractive/unworthy of love. She asked me why I was crying, but I just said “I don’t like myself very much,” which is always the underlying problem with me. And she reassured me that I’m “not a bad person” and “it’s not because you’re not smart or not beautiful.” But the reassurance made me spiral more, bc I was thinking “I didn’t even mention feeling unattractive or stupid, she can just tell that I am.” Then it kept getting worse and worse, “I’m unattractive/unlovable/stupid. I’m not good at sex, I’m not good at anything.” I had to stop myself and realize it was OCD obsessing over the things “wrong” with me. I think I started this post wanting reassurance, but now I think I want to know if anyone has any tips on accepting criticism as someone with OCD, bc it always sends me down a “there is something wrong with me” spiral.

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Laughing…

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community