Gender OCD

In my 24 years of living , out of nowhere I had the thought “what if I’m transgender” I tried to treat it as a silly thought , but then it kept popping up in my head and I started getting extremely anxious. OCD really is the tried and true doubting disorder , because what the actual fuck. I love being a man. I literally admire the male physique. I love being able to grow arm pit hair and not get judged. I do of course love women , and I am in touch with my emotions and I’m definitely feminine in a lot of ways , but I don’t want to change my gender. It’s just absurd. I really hate OCD #genderocd

Username: StudybugStudybug

Date posted: 44w ago

I completely understand. But you said it yourself, you love being a man. You know yourself. Continue to treat it as a silly thought and if you can try not to defend yourself against the thought. Just let it be.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 44w ago

Well glad I’m not alone but this theme can be crippling at least for me. I struggle with soocd, I had a panic attack during an episode thoughts where racing, so I had what if I turn trans because I’m going threw soocd as a thought. Freaked me out, but wasn’t as bad kinda forgot about it. But I guess the back door spike got me pretty good, felt good for 2 days then I had a dream about this theme. Woke up so terrified I started to believe it, then I really went down the rabbit hole. I can’t shake this one for some reason, never felt different my whole life. I always loved me, but damn I hate my brain. I just hope my therapist can snap me out of this, because I’m not strong enough to get this out of my head. But don’t worry your not alone!

Username: IfiknewthenIfiknewthen

Date posted: 44w ago

Out of curiousity, you say this thought came out of nowhere. Are you saying there was absolutely nothing that sparked this concern? Nothing you saw on tv or the internet or in public, etc? I ask because i was hit with sexual orientation ocd before and it was DEFINITELY sparked by the internet.

Username: tylermatthewsneadtylermatthew...

Date posted: 44w ago

@Ifiknewthen Great question ! I was just thinking about this. I’ve had eating disorders off and on for years , because I always felt like I was fat , and I all of a sudden I got this random thought “Maybe I don’t think I’m fat , maybe I just don’t like my body because I wanna be transgender” and then BOOM the anxiety start to hit and I started freaking out , because I knew deep down that wasn’t it , but then the doubt started creeping it and it just became a loop after that. It sounds silly , but I had to go outside and take a walk

Username: ofcourseOliviaofcourseOlivia

Date posted: 44w ago

i can only imagine how unsettling and distressing it must be to have such intrusive thoughts clash with your sense of self. it really sounds like ocd is putting you through the wringer with this relentless doubt. hang in there, you're definitely not alone in this fight. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? i've walked a mile in those shoes and something that really came through for me was 'unstuck' (unstuckmyocd.com/try), which my NOCD therapist suggested. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it gives personalized, step-by-step support that aligns pretty well with the confusion ocd is throwing your way, just like an actual therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: cato4

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m scared that I want to be a boy! I’ve been diagnosed with Harm OCD about 5 weeks ago and all of a sudden my thoughts have changed into me wanting to be a boy! I’m a 14 year old girl who’s never thought or wanted to be a boy before. I would rather the thoughts just go but sometimes the thoughts make me imagine life as a boy and it doesn’t seem that bad which then gives me anxiety because it makes me think that I might want to become a boy! I’ve always been a girly girl and loved dresses and makeup but ever since I’ve got the thought (which came out of no where) I’ve been avoiding makeup and avoiding seeing my friends! I get so scared that I might turn transgender and that I want to be a boy. Help. Is it ocd or am I trans?

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Username: MissLovely

Date posted: 5y ago

I've had every ocd there is, even transgender ocd. I thought to myself, maybe I want to be a guy, cause I thought I was a lesbian and thought being a man would be easier. But I'm really really feminine ? I also worried people would think I'm a hermaphrodite, has anyone else had this? I worry that some people think I'm a man secretely, and again I'm a really feminine woman. I don't wear thrilly dresses but I wear makeup and tight fitting clothes. I like perfume. I'm not even remotely the opposite sex ?

Username: aurokoi

Date posted: 4y ago

TW: GENDER OCD Okay, I posted a lil while ago about SO-OCD, but I have recently been suffering Gender OCD too. And unlike SO-OCD, this one is blowing a hole through my heart. I have never once questioned my gender. I’ve helped my trans and NB friends come out, and never once thought about my gender. But ever since my SO-OCD started and then died down, the thoughts about my gender cropped up. They range from two thoughts: I’m nonbinary, or I’m a gay trans dude in denial. And the latter one freaks me out so much, because I love reading queer media (I’m bi, and so many of my fave book series focus on gay couples), and my brain uses that as an excuse that I like it because I actually AM a gay guy. The thought is paralyzingly, and I can’t even begin to think of a way to overcome it like SO-OCD because the thought of me ‘accepting’ it as true scares the hell out of me. I can’t enjoy my favourite books anymore, or my favourite TV shows/movies. Anything with a gay couple makes my brain think I want to literally be one of them, when before I could just enjoy it for what it was, a story with queer characters. My connection to my gender is something I’ve always held dear to me, and the thought of being pulled from it is heartbreaking, and also makes me feel extremely guilty because I support trans rights so much, so why am I so scared of being trans/NB? How do I even begin to get over this when the idea of accepting the thought terrifies me? How do I begin to convince the anxiety that just because I enjoyed reading/watching something doesn’t mean I actually want it to happen in real life?

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