Weird phase of ocd

Sometimes i feel like i say its ocd to everything when i shouldnt, and i get triggered when i hear ocd is when you feel the urgency to solve the thought, sometimes i call the random negative thoughts about myself ocd too cause it feels like i have to think about this. However now idk what happened, i just remember i got stressed last week and it just got stronger and steonger and now i feel like the whole world is against me, i get criticism from everywhere and then for days the situations that happened or the things others said keeps spinning in my mind, and it makes me feel like i did something wrong and i should feel guilt. Im really reactive to everything right now, i get angry really easily, i used to not care about some things but now even a little spark will start a fire... its annoying, however i still say this is part of ocd. I really feel that i want my old self back and when i have this reactive state i beat myself up cause i dont like this, i want my normal self back. I think this ads more to the problem.... what should i do, any advices?

OCDFamily

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Good that you recognize replaying this in your head is part of ocd! Can you take a step back in the middle of these thoughts?

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

Thats what im working on now, and to react to myself kindly On the judgment part i cant decide if its me or ocd who judges why things are happening. I dont like to talk about this cause if i mention many people just jumps in and give power to my ocd, but about 2 weeks now or more i stopped taking my medication. It was planned, i just wanted to take all of them bc it was expensive but some days i forgot to take it and then i decided okay then i will stop it. I didnt had any side effects, and i dont think that now what i have is bc i stopped taking the medication, one of the many reasons i wanted to stop taking it was bc i realized it is not what will recover me, and meds didnt do anything, what helped is that in time i learned to change my thinking. Maybe in the really bad days it helped me get out of bed and have energy but if i go there i start to worry that i shouldnt stop it and it will be so bad, i will become mentally ill again and blablabla, so i rather ignore it. I think even if i wouldve take medications i still would feel like this now. Its not the meds, its the situation. But my mind makes me go there to feel like it was a bad idea and its because of the meds and im afraid this will continue in the future to that any bad reaction make me think i should take meds...

OCDFamily

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@PRIV8 For me, meds help lessen that panic feeling. But you are right they don't do the work for you. I am rooting for you to feel better, whether that means therapy, meds, more exercise, erp, self care

Yana Eve

Date posted: 25w

Does anyone else feel like this?

Last week I was so obsessed about feeling better I wanted to feel better and I was in a constant state of panic. This week I'm still anxious but not as much and I've been obsessing about losing control/losing my mind or having some other mental illness that isn't ocd. I've also been thinking "what if i don't want to feel better" "what if this is how I am supposed to feel" "what if this is how I'm supposed to feel and how I normally feel is me living in ignorance". I'm also worried that I'm manipulating everyone around me unto thinking that I have ocd when im really just a horrible person, or the opposite of having thoughts that are like "You think you're better than everyone else". I'm stressed out about these thoughts and feelings but I feel like I'm not anxious enough about them and that makes me think that I'm losing control. I feel numb but also anxious at the same time and I don't know how to explain the way I feel but it's scary. Even writing this makes me feel like I'm manipulating people into thinking I have ocd when I really don't and I'm just a horrible awful human. I just want to feel better and I know that but my brain is trying to convince me I don't

Catlove9

Date posted: 22w

I need guidance or to feel like I am not alone

I was doing so much better with my OCD. I thought I finally figured it out. However, the last two weeks have been a nightmare. It’s like I went from 0-100 all over again. And it’s become scarier than it ever has been. Every other thought is either causing me anxiety or turning into an intrusive thought. Any headache or feeling of derealization, and I start to spiral. My thoughts are becoming more gruesome and feeling more real. The intrusive urges are so bad it feels like at any moment I could actually just snap. It feels like I am about to go crazy. Another hard aspect is when I’m getting these intrusive urges it feels like I want to do it or I don’t care if I do it. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like this disgusting monster who is just going to lose it and I want it to be over. Why is this happening when I was finally better? It makes me feel like it’s not OCD and I’m actually this person and I’m just holding my true self back. I’m sick to my stomach.

LizM99

Date posted: 14w

Is this something OCD does?

Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢

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