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- Date posted
- 1y
Someone99Someone99
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Thanks for sharing a positive step in your recovery. I described it as feeling "sober" once I began to notice a positive direction. Once I was in that place, I could process the event that was difficult for me, it was real event OCD. Then I was able to process the emotions, recognize my responsibility, and move towards self forgiveness and healing from the guilt. We're extremely hard on ourselves, just part of the OCD. Just understand that we all make mistakes throughout our lives, be kind to yourself (borrowing your nickname:-)). Not sure if you're religious or not, but forgiveness is something offered us by God when we ask. Forgiving ourselves is more about accepting forgiveness from God, which takes a little humility.
mi.tmi.t
- Date posted
- 1y
I'm proud of you! And happy to hear you are doing better. I hope you are able to allow yourself to feel empowered. As for the sexual intrusive thoughts you fear might come up and cause guilt, I've found that I can mitigate the guilt with anger. Anger can be a healthy emotion, because it is the emotion that protects you and makes you take action to keep yourself well (even if it doesn't always feel like it). At least for me, because I have felt really guilty most of my life, anger was very hard for me to feel and experience much less express outwardly. Guilt made me feel small but anger helped me learn to take up more space. If that is something that might be a good path for you, maybe you could talk more about it to your therapist!
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