Stuck

you got this.stay strong!

It's so hard! I 100% know how you feel.

I can relate to what you are feeling and experiencing. Most days were a struggle to get through . I started meds for about 6 weeks and took myself off them both due to side effects. Realized I don't need to change my meds, I need to change my life. Do you remember when you were happy? What were you doing then? I remember when I was happy. I made plans w friends and family, ...frequently. I was in college learning and stimulating my mind. I was exercising and in love. A broken heart crushed me and have had ruminating thoughts, depression and wishing I was no longer alive Most days. Regret, grief and miserable. We have to find our way back to who we born to be , the light that illuminates our spirit. What brings you joy? Lights you up ?You know when it or they are in your presence. For me, it's young children. So I recently applied to serve in a Children’s Ministry. I used to love to dance but dance clubs are in the past. However, learning swing dance and or just making plans to even watch dance Contestants perform is a change Make Plans with friends or family again...organize it to keep your mind busy and something to look forward to. Learn a new hobby. I am learning crochet right now. A bit of a challenge, but I Need that . I need to keep my mind busy. Something rewarding after I accomplish crocheting a scarf or beanie. Exercise, even of 15 minutes via you tube. Gratitude journal and include writing something Good about yourself . Light a candle when you write or read for additional relaxation. Someone posted on this forum when we have negative thoughts... "Sshhhhh" and a cleansing breath follows. It breaks my negative or ruminating thoughts. I am having better days and will still struggle but it is so much better looking forward to doing something . My doctor had told me to schedule my entire day 15 min blocks of time. I did it once and never want to have to do it again. I will make sure my days are filled with things that interest me vs writing down and planning my day in 15 min increments. It was needed at that time. I hope you can find your way to the light. Create something new and move forward.

hey, it sounds like you're really going through it right now. feeling stuck in a cycle can be so draining, and it's ok to feel overwhelmed and scared. remember, it's a big deal that you're still here fighting, even when things feel so hard. 💪 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' i felt lost just like you and my NOCD therapist pointed me towards unstuck (unstuckmyocd.com/try). it gives personalized, step-by-step support when OCD gets out hand. i think it'll be really handy for you because it could help disrupt that cycle of highs and lows you're experiencing. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3