Asking this cause idk if this is an ocd trap

We shouldnt expect the thoughts to instantly go away when we are ignoring them, this will make ocd worse, but i still sometimes question is this ocd or not when after ignoring a while, some thoughts still come with that strong feeling. For me now, i dont know what can be the main problem, im struggling with that but im trying to find out, since a week im on this reactive state where i feel like i had enough that people blame me, and i feel like everyone is against me and im sensitive to any critisicism. When im in this state i have so strong thoughts about me hating others, criticizing, having random negative thoughgs about others and i started being afraid that i think that im better then everyone(this is my ocd about being egoistic). So i do ignore these thoughts but still the next day or one day in the same week with the same reaction and feelings these hateful thoughts come back, and its not like the usual ocd thoughts like i want to harm someone or something, if i have that now i dont give attention to it cause idk its jjst automatic now that i see those as ocd and not important but when i have these judging thoughts i do not like them. I start to have thoughts about others, like i criticize others, im being negative and hateful in my mind but at the same time i dont like it. Then i start to be afraid that this is me, this is how my week will be, i have to work on myself again, or im being depressed, so ocd judges these. However when i do ignore as i said and it still comes back with the same reaction then i say to myself that maybe theres something deep in me that i need tk woek with, its not ocd its actually a real emotional problem, and i dont like to say that cause the i start to spin aboit whats the problem... then these thoughts turn against me and i think that maybe im not good enough to do what i wanted,maybe its not for me, there are many judging thoughts about myself and its tireing mentally and im afraid its not ocd but actually im having a real problem that i have to deal with...

Angie_04

Date posted: 1y

Ocd traps are so tricky. I often find myself thinking the same thing, is this intrusive thoughts or an actual concern of mine, etc. What usually helps me is looking back on whether it’s a one-time thing, or whether those thoughts and concerns are a regular occurrence.

Angie_04

Date posted: 1y

@Angie_04 If it’s the latter, I treat it like I would any other intrusive thought, without looking too deeply into it and trying not to figure it out the next time.

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

@Angie_04 But your negative patterns can be reaccuring things, cause thats how you view things. Im always afraid that im having these angry thoughts cause i have a trauma or something or that i have a negative view on the world deeply or any problem that im not aware of and im living my life based on that...

PRIV8

Date posted: 24w

This illness brings up intrusive feelings

I was told that this illness that im having now(some say its some kind of covid) is attacking people where they are the most sensitive, so it got my mental health and at first it was the fear of my health which im starting to face but now it got deeper and i have feelings of hopelessness and like a depressed feelings and thoughts like things wont get better. And i dont know where this comes from, im afraid this is actually what i believe. Dont know if its ocd or the illness actually made these problem come up what was pushed away by me... When i have these feelings my first reaction is fear and i dont know if its something i shouldnt give attention or the fear is actually bad and it makes me avoid the problem, so i should work on this depression... I dont know whats happening but its scarry and i dont like these dark thoughts. I think i suffer more because of the fear and shame of these thoughts but again i dont know if the fear and shame shows me that i dont need to give attention to these thoughts or the fear and shame actually blocks me to deal with these thoughts and feelings...

Conquering_OCD

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21w

Knowing the difference

Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.

PRIV8

Date posted: 15w

Questioning my faith or ocd

Since I started to accept that maybe some of the problems i deal with might be things that i should accept cause either way I feel shame if i have these thoughts, and i think that being that person is shameful. I'm struggling these days and I noticed I have thoughts about God not being real, not helping me, questioning if its real and these thoughts makes me feel shame. But i keep accepting it cause Im tired that i feel like im lying to myself and everytime i feel like im avoiding the truth, so I try to accept it that its okay that im having these problems(I do the same with suicidal ocd,I start to accept maybe its real) but since im doing this I noticed it makes me depreassed cause of shame. Made things worse, I always spin about shame that it might be true, i try tk accept it but it doesnt work, I feel like maybe i should go back and label every feeling and thought as ocd but i know i wouldnt be free cause i would feel like im trying to make myself feel better... But if its ocd, how can I decide its that if I have the emotions like im losing my faith, I get angry when i hear about faith, sometimes i feel like i really question it, have thoughts like i dont want to have faith...

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