I’m tired

I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 47w ago

Im sorry! I know its hard.

Username: PaulwithocdPaulwithocd

Date posted: 47w ago

I now how you feel, im going tru it right now a do bad things as a child and now i would never do it guilt is eating me right now, i allso feel bad all the time and iam extremly tired of it. Iam feel like bad person and also my thoughst tells me iam gonna hurt some one. Iam exhousted tired and want cry

Username: AlittlebitalexisAlittlebital...

Date posted: 47w ago

I feel the same way, it’s exhausting. I’m so sorry.

Username: Hippest HobbitHippest Hobbit

Date posted: 47w ago

I've made mistakes too. Everybody makes mistakes. I'm sure many people you know and look up to have made far worse mistakes then you. The truth is people grow and change and people understand that. If you know what you did was wrong all you can do is try to be a better person in the future. Hating yourself won't fix anything and doesn't help anyone. If you want to help people use your story and experience to grow and help people in your community.

Username: FlorenceHanks222FlorenceHank...

Date posted: 47w ago

Hey there, I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time right now. It sounds like you're carrying a heavy burden of guilt and self-doubt, but please remember that you're not alone in this. Many of us with OCD struggle with intrusive thoughts and feelings of unworthiness. Have you ever heard of "unstuck"? It's an AI-powered therapy tool specifically designed for OCD, and it's been really helpful for me over the past month. It might be worth checking out, as it could provide you with some additional support. Another member on this forum suggested it to me, and I really wish I had known about it sooner. Hang in there!

Username: little blue

Date posted: 5y ago

I feel too "bad" to redeem myself or deserve recovery. I know it's just my OCD but every second I'm awake another completely different memory hits me and I'm filled with guilt and regret and paranoia. It never stops. I really don't know what to do. I'm in therapy and I'm trying every day but it's so hard to get better when you feel like you need to punish yourself for every move you make. I'm not sure what kind of treatment could help me when I have a new obsession every half hour and they're generally based on my past/real events. If any of you feel this way I'm so sorry :(

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Username: SoMi1907

Date posted: 4y ago

I feel sad and guilty everyday. I can't get out of it and to be honest, I don't even know if I want to. Everytime I feel a tiny bit better, the waves of sadness come crashing me down and I feel lost and alone again. I can't fight anymore, I don't know how. I feel that even if I confessed to my bf, I wouldn't stop feeling this way because then just another thing pops up which I probably did wrong. I don't know how to live with this constant guilt, it is sucking the life out of me. And if I try to take it with me or not take it seriously, I think "what if you are just using ocd to cover up that you really did a bad thing" I can't go on, I have no hope left and I feel so desperate

Username: muffpuff

Date posted: 2y ago

i'm so tired

i'm tired of the fear of becoming something horrible. im tired of feeling like i'm an irredeemable monster. im tired of thinking about what happened every hour of my life. im tired of the fear of being a bad person. im tired of never feeling like i deserve anything. i'm tired of the ruminating, the anguish, the guilt, the regret, the pain, the anger at myself. i dont know what i want. it feels as if making my life better will be like excusing my actions. i feel like i deserve this pain. my genuine emotions feel like a facade. im so scared. i dont want to be a bad person. why did i think it was okay in the moment. why.

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