My brain tends to tell me that i’m lying about my OCD for attention. Or thinking that i’m just using it to lie about my intrusive thoughts…but when I ask myself and others. I was diagnosed with OCD but my brain says it’s just attention. Is this normal?
Yes. Mine tells me I’m lying to myself about having it and that ERP won’t help and that I’m just an evil person.
YES. Everytime I get better I tell myself I never actually had OCD and I’m just making it up because I should be struggling with it more. It’s honestly harder to ignore than all my other symptoms. I’m glad I saw this post because I thought I was the only one.
@Kennedy B Thank you so much. You helped me and i’m glad I can help you feel less alone with this. We just have to be strong together! 🥰
Ocd is commonly known as the doubting disorder, and doubting your own diagnosis is a huge part of it. I’ve also gone through long phases of doubting my diagnosis and deciding I was a monster, and that’s just where more ERP comes in handy. You kind of just have to say to yourself, “I might not have it, I might be lying to everyone for attention, or I might actually have ocd. There is no way to know with 100% certainty, and thinking/worrying about it won’t get me any closer to knowing. I’ll find out when I find out, and I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.” It sucks and is so hard but it kind of stands up to the ocd and allows the doubts to be there, without taking them too seriously.
Yep ocd likes to convince me that I’m not gonna be mentally stable or I’m sick or I’m not in control or I’m an actual psychopath- it’s hard to tell myself no that’s not true especially with the urges but I know in my heart it’s ocd
@secretlyobsessed2012 This is interesting. Mine recently has been making me feel mentally “ill” which has made all the urges so much worse. If that makes sense.
It’s a doubting disorder. So it’ll do that
When I was a child, before I knew this was OCD, I struggled with constant "magical thinking" compulsions (don't step on the crack or mom's back will actually break, etc). When I later learned this was OCD, it almost immediately solved it. Any time I got a magical thought, I would say to myself "that's just an OCD thought. ignore it." and it just stopped coming! Like seriously it fixed the magical thinking stuff forever. But of course the OCD has resurfaced in other ways. So naturally, I've tried to use the same strategy since I had so much success with it previously. But I wonder sometimes if telling myself "that's just OCD" is almost functioning as a reassurance compulsion? I hate how meta this gets. For example, I have ROCD that comes and goes. So sometimes I'll get a thought like "what if i'm still in love with my ex?" and then I'll tell myself "that's obviously just an ROCD thought" and will feel relief, almost like reassurance. But it comes back. So is telling myself that it's OCD a reassurance compulsion ?? It's just so weird because it worked so perfectly as a kid with the magical thinking thing.
How to know if you actually have it or if I’m just making up the symptoms? I have a lot of intrusive thoughts constantly and even have a “theme” but it really surged after I search up what I was experiencing, but then again I search up a lot of what I experience and constantly have to recheck things. My parents say I’m normal but I know I’m not, (both of my siblings have adhd) I find it immensely hard to focus from turning 17-18. Please let me know what you think l! Thanks!
Does anyone struggle with feeling like their ocd issues are not ocd enough compared to other peoples ocd? Is this an ocd thought itself lol
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