I write again cause im really struggling now

It made me even forget how ocd works. Ocd is lying and often the thing we fear about cant happen its just our imagination, but right now im afraid of falling back where i was when i had really bad ocd, so im afraid of a really bad relapse. And i keep feeling that it will come, i have the same emotions and my mindset starts to shift back too... im afraid tko feel those emotions again, to feel that bad. But i know this feeds my ocd... then the solution is let it come back, let myself get that relaose and all the scary emotion just that i can show my brain its not dangerous? It sounds stupid tho..

Simon

Date posted: 1y

So sorry you’re struggling. I know the exact feeling you’re describing all too well. It sounds like you know your tools. I can say from trial and error, that when I’m in maintenance, and feeling pretty good, I get too lax on exposures and sort of just ignore the fact that I have ocd. It is always a good idea to do little bite sized exposures especially when you’re doing well. In the back of my kind, I’m always worried about that dreaded relapse, which is a good reason to do a short exposure which addresses that particular fear. ‘This might come back, it might be as bad as it was’ etc. Sending healing and courage your way, you’ve beat this in the past and you will continue to 😊

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

I do know my tools but i dont know which to use in what situation... sometimes i feel like nothing works, some say ocd and every negative emotion is a deeper problem so i try to see what is that but my mind will tell me things that triggers me (cause im depressed,have trauma,im like this, i cant do better) all the stories and thats why i dont like searching whats the deeper issue... but if i just do the simple ignoring tool then i feel like im avoiding things... people in the ocd social media say just ignore ocd thoughts ocd feelings and there always ocd this or that but we(atleast me) struggle identifying what is an ocd feeling and what is a real feeling that i should let myself feel through. .

Simon

Date posted: 1y

@PRIV8 I can really relate. Here is my perspective. Do your best to allow yourself to feel the bad feelings, but resist getting pulled into the ocd content and story with your thoughts. Ignoring the thoughts is a good thing to do if possible. Actually, the best way to ignore them is to agree with them. Avoiding the feelings is going to be compulsive. I would suggest trying to let the feelings be there while giving your full attention to another activity like watching a movie, work, etc. I would be wary of searching for a deeper problem. That usually is what non-ocd therapists suggest, which can get an ocd sufferer more invested in the ocd theme searching for answers. I think there are certainly big benefits to that kind of therapy for other things, but it can be damaging specifically for ocd and intrusive thoughts. I think it is always good to feel through the discomfort, but never beneficial to think through the ocd thoughts.

Simon

Date posted: 1y

@Simon Also, try to think of it like exercise. One jog won’t magically make a person in shape, but overtime it will. We sort of need to look at the benefits of this work in that way, or else we get into compulsively trying to make ourselves feel better.

PRIV8

Date posted: 1y

@Simon I know searching answers is not for ocd, is for other problems,but we dont know what we are experiencing at the moment is ocd or its a deep problem... expecially when your problem is reaccuring. And for some trying to see if its a real problem or ocd is a compulsion. I many times tried to not get tk the deep problem, and eventually it went away but i always found myself goingback so my mind now is like this cant be ocd... everything cannot be ocd. Im not a special human that i dont have problems, everything is just fake problems made up by ocd..

Anonynmous19

Date posted: 24w

Relapse

Im struggling with false memory pocd sexual what if thoughts. I discussed it with three therapists. Did CBT and ERP. Ive been free of this intrusive thoughts for 11 months and now its back and i feel like at square onewith doubt. Redoubting things ive already did therapy on and disproved. I felt inner peace and fine for almost a year and now back to feeling stuck ruminating questioning whats real memory and whats false memory even though deep down i kmkw its false memory i have evidence against the thoughts and its so ego dystonic theres no proof as my therapist said.

Andrew Escobar

Date posted: 17w

🫠

Okay so I have been struggling with pocd. And I have been getting better but now my ocd is telling me that I'm proving it right by slowly started to get better. For example, after so long of trying my hardest to avoid anything protaining to children I realized that I have to in order to get better. So I've been letting myself go out more and yk see children. The intrusive thoughts are still there though. Which is feeding into it trying to convince me that it's real. It feels like it does that anytime I'm a step closer to getting better. Does anyone have any advice on how to help it? I struggle with mental checks and responding. I know that I should let it pass but it's so difficult. The intrusive thoughts have been getting worse too. They pop up over the smallest things. It's all just jumping to insane conclusions and I'm so sick of it. I just want to be better.

POCD

myfunnyvalen...

Date posted: 11w

Frustrated

So my ocd has been doing better, in the sense that I am able to resist compulsions, but the thoughts are still there. And I get so upset because some days I’m just constantly stuck in my own head. Like I went out to today with my mom, and for a solid hour I was spiraling. And my OCD has been trying to make it seem like this flare up is different, and that because things aren’t working out the way I want them to be regarding my recovery, that it’s not OCD and I’m just a crazy person. It causes me to just shut down and want to just go home. I get so upset that I want to cry. I get intrusive thoughts that something bad is gonna happen, or that something doesn’t feel right, and so it feels like I do something, anything, to make me feel better about it. I also can’t sleep in my own bed. I’m so afraid that I won’t fall asleep in it, and if I don’t sleep, I will go crazy. My thoughts are just so scary rn, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want anything bad to happen to me :(

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