Ppl who recovered completely from HOCD plz tell how did it feel while recovering and when u finally completely recovered

Recovery feels like I don't give a f..ck about those thoughts when they come because I really don't care what I am but what I want.

I've had most, not all, OCD themes. When my life became unmanageable, I started to stop fooling around with nonsense therapies and I fully embraced behavioural therapy along with ACT. Steven Hayes' book "get out of your mind and into your life" was my first approach to it. After that I underwent aggressive behavioural treatment with ERP. After all the hard work of keeping to my values regardless of the thoughts I started to gain my life and confidence back, including in the area of sexual orientation. The core premise of behavioural treatment is about "how you choose" not "how you feel". Still, just as many heroin addicts, people with OCD are always in pursue of a feeling and waste their lives in search of it. When you give up that search it is the most wonderful and liberating feeling, paradoxically.

I think I know what you mean; however it sounds like you are confusing the 'urge' to do compulsions with yielding to the compulsions. When you STOP giving into de compulsions, which is fucking hard I am not gonna lie, then the urge becomes more manageable after a while. That is because by 'behaving' mentally and physically in a certain way despite your anxiety, your confidence starts growing (kind of like mental weight lifting), so anxiety becomes more manageable and urge to compulse too. For example, whenever I get and intrusive thought now it usually does not come with a rush of anxiety but I get a tiny bit of an urge to ruminate but still I don't. I don't have too. I feel in control. I feel peace. However I don't feel CERTAIN - that is a feeling a gave up pursuing a while ago since the moment it almost had me killed.

Rlly wow

Can u plz plzzz tell me more I would appreciate it so muchhh

What do you want to know?

How did u start recover like how did it feel the first time u felt good like the first time u felt like it’s getting better how was it

Thanks u sm but I meant how did u feel mentally like the ruminating the compulsion what happens to that

Like u should know this feel that I’m about to explain I hope u do, so what I meant is that how does ur brain feel like I know when u have ocd u feel trapped in your brain u do a lot of compulsions I don’t know if u used to do this but it’s something like idk what it’s just something in my brain that I used to do like a movement or something idk if it’s a compulsion or what like I talk to my Brian a lot so yeah what happens to this like how did ur brain feel after the therapy

HOPE U UNDERSTOOD BC TGE THING I EXPLAINED IS NONSENSE ITS AN IMAGINATION U KNOW U SHOULD KNOW THAT SENCE U HAVE OCD

Omg u r a god u literally knew what I was saying and explained it in the right way thank u soo much but one last thing sometimes I just don’t know which is the urge or the compulsion so I start fucking up again what should I do about that

And also sometimes when I do erp on my own I just don’t know what is what like idk what is true or fake and what should I avoid doing it’s just everywhere

I know, it is hard. If you don't have a mindfulness practice, it would be helpful to start one. There are tons of guided meditations online - we need to start getting familiar with the way the brain works. The only way to do that is by setting time apart to sit or lie down and observe it - the more you so it the faster you'll be able to separate urges and thoughts (which is not you) and compulsions (which it is you). Before any ERP I would practice a lot with that.