I am so spent !!!!

It took me so much effort to get up out of bed after struggling so much and my dog whoo I love dearly is having stomach issues that has caused a mess (which I stepped in as well) and it's just not one of those days I can not DEALLLLL. I can't ERP it and not clean the mess up how my brain things is logical to clean it up, but I literally don't have it in me to deal with this, i am so threadbare in my energy, I have zero spoons left to give, and I just want to scream. Thatwont help anything though. I also have peopole in my life who are extremely needy of me right now for serious reasons I'd like to be there for them for, and I give whatever I have left energy wise to be there for them, and yet it always seems like I am gnot doing enough. I DO try to communicate that I struggling ... I do my best to honor my needs as well but I literallt cannot do it all, and I certainly feel like I can't deal with this dog sh*t literally too. I wish I could get away from it all and escape to a more peaceful way of being. I am so f-cing sick of my brain. I do all the things to work on it and yet here I still am

Username: TapDrumRollTapDrumRoll

Date posted: 46w ago

Get up, no matter. What’s the alternative? You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Keep doing what you’ve been doing, helping others and stop to help yourself too. Also maybe take some time to re-evaluate what your priorities are. You need your sanity. Maybe there are other people who can take a little weight off your shoulders. Ask and enlist someone who knows how hard you are trying and have them help out, even in little ways. If you don’t ask then nobody knows you’re in need. We can not help anyone if we haven’t met our own needs. :::: Also maybe invest in a spot cleaning device, just a small appliance to make things easier with your sick pup. But, lighten your load, ask for help or learn to just say “No.” but politely.

Username: FJustRightOCDFJustRightOCD

Date posted: 46w ago

I appreciate you so much. I appreciate so much that you took the time to write this. It's direct and honest. And encouraging (but not in that unrealistic toxic positivity way. More like in a both stoic and realistic way.) This may sound weird for me to say but I think I need to print this comment out and just read it sometimes when I need the reminder. Thank you for helping me in this pit that I'm in. You are right that I am strong. I def feel as spent as possible. but you are right. I wish you all the best karma bc you deserve it. Thank you so much

Username: TapDrumRollTapDrumRoll

Date posted: 46w ago

@FJustRightOCD You’re welcome. These are things I do for myself as well. But, back to what you wrote about the poop. It made me think that the poop was not only the breaking point but symbolized the toxicity and the need to step back and analyze your daily routine. ~ It all happened as it should’ve. I have posted messages around my house, screen shot messages several times throughout my photo album so I will see them repeatedly and I talk out loud in my car on the way to work about all the things I’m grateful for and ask the universe/god to help me in my quest for peace, balance, patience etc. I will even write it down late at night in a journal. I’m glad I helped. I hope you can help me when I need it. I’m on here from time to time with my problems.

Username: TapDrumRollTapDrumRoll

Date posted: 46w ago

@TapDrumRoll I’m sorry….I wish your doggie better health too!

Username: Anonymous_anonAnonymous_anon

Date posted: 46w ago

This is literally me rn, not exactly what you’ve described tho but I’m finding it hard to get out of bed. I’m tired and I don’t know what to do anymore. No one should have to live this way.

Username: FJustRightOCDFJustRightOCD

Date posted: 46w ago

I agree. Thank you so much for your empathy. I wish us both the best. <3 Feel free to vent here on this thread if ever needed with someone who gets it

Username: AshleyWilliams45AshleyWillia...

Date posted: 46w ago

hey there, sounds like you're in a really tough spot, dealing with ocd stuff, a sick dog, and having to support others. it's quite the pipeful and it's admirable how you're trying to juggle everything despite feeling completely drained. you definitely give off a warrior vibe, dealing with so much and still trying to honor your needs. 💪 have you heard of "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try)? it's an ai-powered tool specifically for ocd and honestly, it's been super helpful for me this past month. i got to know about it from another member on this forum and i seriously wish i had known about this earlier! 😊

Username: mummers

Date posted: 5y ago

*venting* I’m so tired of life. I just woke up, and I feel like going back to bed and sleep until this nightmare passes. This week has been one of the hardest of my life. I don’t think I can face another day of intrusive thoughts, fear, anxiety. I need some moments of relief, but there are none. I wanna have a life again. Anxiety and obsessive thoughts have killed my social life, my ambitions and desires, my happiness. I’ve been fighting for the past 6 months for nothing. I don’t see any improvement. I’m on day 3 of Lexapro and of course i can’t tell if it’s gonna work for me or not. I’m on the first stages of ERP therapy and I still haven’t got any assigned homework to work on, which I really need because I need to feel like I’m doing SOMETHING to help myself with ocd and Gad. I just hope someone could just take out whatever part of my brain isn’t working properly and replace it with a new piece. I don’t wanna feel like a burden to my family or boyfriend anymore. I can’t believe all the damage that I’m causing. I don’t know what to do with all this self hate. I don’t know where to turn to. I seem to have all the help that one could need - therapy, medication, support system. Yet I feel like I can’t spend another day living like this.

Username: Brian :)

Date posted: 2y ago

Here I am having a bad day with ocd . Meanwhile , my mom is giving Ton of crap for ridiculous things like ; having my hair messy, being late to work, not being able to do things on my own like drive a car and/ or transport myself to own places on my own. This is so exhausting she has no idea what I am going through and everyday is a fucking battle for me . The other day she was very upset I hadn’t cleaned up my room but that is all due to my ocd :( I can’t even do that . Not to mention, if I ever do clean my room I have to always do it in such precise way . I can’t have any interruptions and I always have to have everything done the way I feel is right . Aside from the anxiety I get from that, I’m also feeling overwhelmed with my daily ocd thoughts . Somebody help me !

Username: October12

Date posted: 1y ago

The struggle bus

I am feeling absolutely hopeless that ERP will work. I am in a state of near constant heart pounding, restlessness, and my head spinning and spinning. I feel like it’s too hard and I can’t do this and if I don’t get this, I’m out of options and will end up in a mental institution. This is the most insane experience I’ve ever had in my 43 years alive. I have two young children and a husband that are my world and I just want to be free of this!! I want my old life back before I woke up like this on some random day. I feel completely hopeless and like I’m not supposed to reassure myself, encourage myself, etc. I just needed to get this out.

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