Hey everyone! Today is my birthday but I don’t feel like celebrating. I have come to terms that I am a terrible person and I don’t deserve my friends, my family, or the opportunities I’ve been given because I’m living a lie. I am a hypocrite and I feel like everything is closing in around me.
I may not know who you are but I can tell you one thing. You’re not a terrible person, you just feel like you are for whatever reason. That’s ok I’m hard on myself too and I’ll consider myself a hypocrite when some unwanted thoughts go against my values and ethics. Just because you feel this way doesn’t mean you don’t deserve some birthday cake (or cupcake or brownies or whatever your preferred birthday dessert is 😂). I remember one time I didn’t tell any of my college friends about my birthday and they came up to me like the next day and were like “why didn’t you say anything?” And I was like I didn’t feel like you guys cared but in reality they did. Thoughts are just what they are thoughts. They aren’t facts. And a lot of the time they can mess with your head to the point to where you think something is so real and convincing, when in reality, it’s the exact opposite. So happy birthday whoever you are! I’m rooting for you to shake out of the blues and to have some good food today!!
Regardless of what you have done/said/etc. you’re not a terrible person, and you’re still deserving of happiness. I hope you can accept that and try to have a good birthday. Happy Birthday!
I hope whatever your going through you can keep pushing and work through it. Whatever you think about yourself is not always reality. I don't know your struggle. but all I see is, you saw this app. Downloaded it. Made an account in order to help yourself. That says enough to me that you want rid of whatever your experiencing and that's not what a bad person does.(don't want to give reassurance if your doing therapy) but an outside perspective. Keep pushing. Don't give up
And happy birthday
hey there. i'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this way on your birthday, no less. 🎈 life with ocd can be so tough sometimes, and you're incredibly brave for sharing your feelings. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? when i was feeling similarly, what really helped me was utilizing this tool (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my NOCD therapist recommended, which focuses on taking things step-by-step to combat these negative thoughts. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers immediate support when everything feels overwhelming. trust me, i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! 💗
It'll get easier one day, you deserve this birthday you made it through the dam year 🤣 just try your best to stay calm and remember birthday celebrations aren't just for you, the people in your life are meant to celebrate you as well!
My birthday is coming up in about 2 weeks and my friends are planning to celebrate with me and they told me they all got me presents and I feel so undeserving and I keep telling them no because I feel like if they knew my past they would hate me 😭
Hello everyone it’s my birthday and I can’t stop ruminating, haha, I’m not sure why I feel sad if everything is going I guess pretty well. I keep ruminating and overthinking about this one person and stuff, we cleared things about how we feel and it made me and them feel happy but my brain keeps telling me I’m not good enough for them and that things won’t go well or something, I really hate having these thoughts because I know I should be alright but it’s all making me sad.
my real event OCD flares up by my birthday each year. i just remember the feeling of humiliation— inviting people to my birthday and no one wanting to show up, suddenly everyone has plans, i bring up wanting to do something for my birthday and they say “oh why dont you go do that then?” in a way that says : “uh, why are you even bringing this up to me” i guess ive always been strong knowing that i dont make a lot of close friends, and that’s okay. but it just hurts so bad each time this time comes around and i am reminded of how humiliating it is to think you have built a friendship only for them to brush it off no explanation. “best friends” of over a decade brushing me off on my birthday because i thought they were just busy but i was actually just left in the dark not knowing they didnt even like me. it’s just hard. i feel unwanted and stupid. i don’t like trying, and when i try, it turns out like this. i have true, close friends, and a family that loves me now. but the past just haunts me. i hate my birthday. i want to move on, but each time my birthday comes around i feel like theres something stuck in my throat, an overwhelming fear of being the laughingstock without knowing again. i hate this.
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