Venting

I woke up early face this weirds obsession didn’t do compulsion so that’s good my day was going fine until my toddler started to itch and cry I did everything but the cry continued and I got desperately since my stress level are constantly high because of her eczema I had a anxiety attack when I got desperately I kept getting this thoughts of my ocd and anxiety will never get better because my kid got severe ecezma I m constantly under stress this is why I relapse so much and I don’t think therapy will help me because of my stress level is no control after this I get really depressed like there’s no recovery for me because once again stress level are high going on 3 years with a kid with severe eczema any advice I m really trying to recover from ocd but how can I if constantly under stress ?

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MemoryHoarder

Date posted: 1y

My son had really bad eczema and would have open sores and bleed almost constantly for years. The Dr gave us ointment and that helps. Therapy doesn't help me much, but I started taking medicine, Wellbutrin and Fluxomine a few months ago and surprisingly to me has really calmed does a lot of my symptoms of worry, irrational thoughts, etc. Hang in there!

Monii

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yes is so bad the eczema is constantly I don’t know what to do may put her in that monthly shot do you know what ointment was your son prescribed the therapy used to help me before her and even when pregnant I always choose recovery some how now I make some progress and back to relapse because of this stress :(. That’s good that the medicine work for you so you don’t get anxiety at all like do the thoughts make you anxious?

MemoryHoarder

Date posted: 1y

@Monii - I cant remember the name, but it was something probably really generic. I still suffer severe anxiety and depression while on the meds, but they help with the spikes when it gets out of control. Having a 3 year old is tough, at a certain point they will get better at not itching because they will likely realize they are doing more harm than good.

Monii

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Ah ok I always wonder to go on meds but my health ocd won’t let me I worry about side effects and stuff is very tough I have a 9 years old boy but I get 0 stress from him I had him when I was 20 my ocd was really bad back then I didn’t even know it was ocd until 2 years later after he was born but my ocd is worse now than back them because of the eczema I get this thoughts like the eczema will never end and it send me to a anxiety attack because I want it to end so I can get peace of mind and focus on my recovery hopefully it get better I don’t want to put her in the monthly shot because I heard so many bad things and still don’t fix

MemoryHoarder

Date posted: 1y

@Monii - I was really scared to go on meds and always said I never would. I will admit there are side effects, but I will take these side effects all day as opposed to feeling like I did before. I could barely get out of bed and almost quit my job that Ive been in for 9 years. Feel free to DM me, I can look up what the ointment was called and get back to you.

Monii

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Yes I understand definitely side effects are nothing compare to ocd I think we need to follow each other to send messages

Anonymous_anon

Date posted: 25w

Tired

At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.

3xDisorders

Date posted: 24w

Trying but struggling

First post... I ruminate all the time, getting triggered by the smallest things that remind me of terrible events in my life or fears tied to my compulsions. It could be as small as a lawyer looking at my LinkedIn profile and me convincing myself that means I'm getting sued. Or even an article about taxes that makes me spiral into thinking I'm negligent. I could be fine one minute & wonder if I'm making it all up and then cry for two hours the next, cursing people who are neurotypical and wishing I could be like them. I tried talk therapy for two years and now I'm doing NOCD + ERP because I'm pregnant and had to reduce my dose of medication. Pregnancy almost made my OCD mental compulsions worse, and I got diagnosised with MDD, too. Not to mention the skin picking disorder I've had since childhood. It's becoming really hard to be positive despite a daily gratitude journal, walking 5k steps a day, and doing calming yoga with the occasional meditation when things get really bad. I'm trying, I really am. But having three diagnosed disorders makes me feel like I'm set up to fail despite having a wonderful husband and life, plus my coming first baby. It makes me feel like a horrible person when everything around me is seemingly fine but I can't seem to focus enough on the present to appreciate it. I feel so lost about it all and am plagued by guilt and shame. Does anyone else relate?

Flower1004

Date posted: 24w

It’s been getting worse..

Just sorta to vent and maybe get advice… I normally struggle with OCD and other MH/ medical issues.. I’ve sorta become acclimated to the stress, pain, mind games, and constant perfectionism. I thought I had it under control but this OCD has just been creeping back in small ways over time. I’ve caught myself doing behaviors and not feeling able to stop it. (This is combo of OCD but not sure how to categorize it all) - compulsively counting body movements til it’s the right number and feeling - adjusting papers/rewritten notes numerous times - irrational thoughts of my new pup being dead when I check on her - irrational thoughts that I don’t love my partner or he doesn’t love me after almost 10 years - every plate, cup, utensil has to be properly inspected before being able to use it - food can not have day of expiration (or even close to it) or a weird look or smell = it is inedible - recent close call accident led to dread driving and constant thoughts of a crash even though I did what I could and didn’t crash The list just keeps going.. but it has simply been a struggle that has lead me to feeling self conscious, unprofessional, childish, ashamed, and crazy. It’s a hard thing to accept that this has begun to return after finding ways to cope and manage in the past. I am struggling with finding ways to cope with it all cuz it is constantly disturbing my relationship, work, and personal well being Well that’s my truth for the day

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