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I genuinely can't stand my life any longer. I just wanted it all to end
I genuinely can't stand my life any longer. I just wanted it all to end
It won't feel like this forever, things always change in life. I'm sorry to hear you're going through this right now, take care
It gets better. Trust me. Iām having a bad day myself today with OCD. It all feels so real and true but I know it will get better it always does. Sit with anxiety sit with the uncomfortable feelings. Donāt engage in any compulsions I know itās easier said than done but it is the way out of all of this
I've been where you are many times in the past, and probably will again sometime in the future. But it's true, things will get better; probably not in the short-run, if I'm honest, and probably not in the long-run either, but they will in the medium-run, and for now, that's enough for me. (I actually stole that from John Green who also has OCD. I recommend watching his videos on his Blog Brothers YouTube channel if you haven't already. He's actually helped me a lot). I also recommend getting an animal companion if you can and praying if you can, since both of those things have helped me a lot too, not necessarily with OCD but with coping.
Feeling like I am a burden on my parents as well on me. No my parents never said anything like this. I just want to end this life which is full of mental suffering which can't be explained. Feeling like I will never be able to do anything in my life. I so want to go far away from these things where there will be only peace.
iām so tired of everything i canāt take the ocd on top of school life no friends no love never will find good love. i canāt be out publicly iāll never be in the right body iāll never be happy and stable i just want to dissapear. I will never escape my ocd and my gender. i canāt do this my entire life.
Iām really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, itās like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isnāt that great and everything is super tough for me. Itās like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now Iām really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me itās decently strong so itās hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. Itās an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. Iām not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that Iām getting better when in reality Iām in so much pain, itās like Iām barely doing anything at all. Please, help, Iāve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though itās extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I donāt want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? Iām in so much pain. I donāt know how to even deal with it. Iām so lost, I might lose it more, and Iām scared for myself. I feel like I donāt even deserve help. Iām so mentally unwell I canāt even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. Iām so numb to it all. I donāt feel anything anymore.
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