I just came across a news article and it said a mom pushed her baby off a counter on purpose and it was caught on tape. It was disturbing to see fr and itβs making me panic because I babysit a lot, what if I did that to my nieces or what if I would do that to my nieces π I hate OCD so much.
i know how you feel, just the thought of you being potentially capable for such horrible stuff messes you up :( just remember just because you think could do something doesnβt actually mean youβd do it or even want to
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I know this is the same advice but it is the truth. In the face of any βwhat ifβ and itβs accompanying paralysing anxiety, there isnβt often a short term solution. The long term solution is to sit with the feelings for a certain amount of time (you can increase this amount of time incrementally) without acting out your compulsions. Every single second you expose yourself to the negative emotion is a win. In time, and hundreds of baby steps, you will climb the mountain. You will then hopefully find out that they are only emotions. Their deceptions nothing more than illusions. The short term solution is to act out a compulsion to relieve anxiety. This makes it worse in the long run. You cannot do this. Donβt tolerate OCD. It is a deceiver and aims to rob you of your peace and joy. Donβt tolerate it, or at-least incrementally learn not to. Enjoy babysitting your nieces, donβt tolerate OCD or play itβs games. Itβs like a nicotine addiction. The short term solution to withdrawals is to smoke a cigarette, but you only get more addicted in the long run. But by smoking one less cigarette every week, you can live a smoker free life. All the best to you, I hope this is helpful. I will Pray for you. Keep optimistic.
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What if I did this to my nieces and Iβm going to jail. Harm OCD scares me so much. Sometimes I think the same with my dogs. Theyβre so cute and then Iβll think βwhat if I stabbed my dogβ π€’
ππππ£πͺ ππππππππ₯ πππππππ βππΌπΈππΌ π»πβ'π βπΌπΈπ» ππ½ πΌπΈππππ π»ππππβπΉπΌπ» πΉπ πβπΌππΌπ πππβ πππ»π hi everyone, I am really struggling with something disturbing and I'm so afraid I'm a PDF. So my sis came to visit with my nephew for the first time. So the other day we were taking pics with the baby I was already feeling kinda nervous cuz I never held a baby before. Anyway it was my turn and I like I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him( not exactly the thought but the of thought was more graphic and I don't wanna disturb anyone). And I can't remember if I thought that while I was bumping him on my stomach (like how people bump babies on their hips) or before I started doing so. Anyways I can't really remember what my reaction to that thought was or if I started bumping him before or after I had that thought... So I tried not to think much of it but over time I started to spiral really bad and wonder why I thought that and why then I would bump him on my stomach after having that thought or during. I just feel so disgusted. Like was I curious about it? Did I disregard the thought because my brain thinks disturbing things? Ik right now away from that situation that ofc I have no sexual interest in my nephew at all. I played with him and helped changed diaper and everything and never had the urge to do anything inappropriate to him besides that one weird instance. So like I'm so disturbed like did that mean something? I have P OCD but that didn't really feel like an intrusive thought? I also can be very impulsive, and if it was impulsive does that mean I had a desire? Now I'm terrified of having kids even though I wanted some or to foster some. I mean I know but myself I'm not sexually attracted to kids but then why would I think that I am so disturbed really and feel so sick. ππππ I don't know what to do I'm so scared about what my motivation was I feel so bad and scaredππππ
iβm struggling. so iβm a nanny and i had an intrusive thought to like do something bad to him so i was very upset crying saying i donβt want to do it but as i was changing him i got closer to it to see if i would actually do it and i got grossed out. now im feel extremely guilty i even got closer.
TW! please someone comment When I was 12 or 13 I used to babysit a little girl, she had a habit of keeping her hand in her diaper and was always touching herself, there was one point I was changing her diaper and noticed she was really red. I had separated her private parts and checked the inner area for signs of infection. She was okay, just some really really bad diaper rash. I know this is what happened yet my brain is trying to convince me that I hurt her, and that I wanted to do it, I know I would never hurt a child but with all the anxiety I feel when I think about it I'm starting to wonder if I did do it because I wanted to hurt her, I don't wanna be a p, I don't wanna hurt innocent children, I used to never have these thoughts but now I do and I'm so scared to tell my therapist as she hasn't diagnosed me with ocd yet. I don't want her to think I'm a p nor do I wanna hurt kids, but my brain keeps telling me that I do and that I'm just lying to myself and everyone around me, ik I would never do something that could harm a child but I keep getting these thoughts and their inappropriate and I just want them to stop, does anyone have any tips on how to help myself? I keep turning to my boyfriend for reassurance but ik that that's just a quick fix and that ill be spiraling about it again.Please help
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