I just came across a news article and it said a mom pushed her baby off a counter on purpose and it was caught on tape. It was disturbing to see fr and it’s making me panic because I babysit a lot, what if I did that to my nieces or what if I would do that to my nieces 💔 I hate OCD so much.
i know how you feel, just the thought of you being potentially capable for such horrible stuff messes you up :( just remember just because you think could do something doesn’t actually mean you’d do it or even want to
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I know this is the same advice but it is the truth. In the face of any ‘what if’ and it’s accompanying paralysing anxiety, there isn’t often a short term solution. The long term solution is to sit with the feelings for a certain amount of time (you can increase this amount of time incrementally) without acting out your compulsions. Every single second you expose yourself to the negative emotion is a win. In time, and hundreds of baby steps, you will climb the mountain. You will then hopefully find out that they are only emotions. Their deceptions nothing more than illusions. The short term solution is to act out a compulsion to relieve anxiety. This makes it worse in the long run. You cannot do this. Don’t tolerate OCD. It is a deceiver and aims to rob you of your peace and joy. Don’t tolerate it, or at-least incrementally learn not to. Enjoy babysitting your nieces, don’t tolerate OCD or play it’s games. It’s like a nicotine addiction. The short term solution to withdrawals is to smoke a cigarette, but you only get more addicted in the long run. But by smoking one less cigarette every week, you can live a smoker free life. All the best to you, I hope this is helpful. I will Pray for you. Keep optimistic.
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What if I did this to my nieces and I’m going to jail. Harm OCD scares me so much. Sometimes I think the same with my dogs. They’re so cute and then I’ll think “what if I stabbed my dog” 🤢
I feel like I am going insane. My ocd has never been this bad before. I’m waking up every morning with extreme dehabilitating anxiety. I am gagging and using the restroom all of the time. My pocd has reached an all time high. I work in a law firm and read a very disturbing case involving child abuse and child pornography. Ever since my world has been twisted upside down. I feel like the line is so thin. Like anyone can cross it in a split second and their world can be flipped upside down in an instant. I have a daughter of my own and that night after having read that story at work, my intrusive thoughts and feelings were at an all time high. I was changing her diaper and had intrusive thoughts which I knew was going to, givin the triggering and emotionally draining day I had. I quickly pushed them out of my head and then what happened next is some what of a blur because I have spent the last five days ruminating it over and over and over again in my head. I was trying to get her to lay down in her crib and she kept standing up. I was gonna lay her down in a way that required me to maneuver her with one hand and that one hand would be in between her legs, over her clothes and her diaper. I see people carry and handle their babies like this all of the time but I always avoid it. This time I didn’t. I fought the compulsion to move my hand. Because it is in fact, not a sexual thing at all. But in my mind I had it made out to be. I remember moving her super quickly in that fashion and immediately feeling guilt like I did it in a malicious sexual way. Even though the movement itself is not sexual at all, because it has been in my mind forever as a sexual place I’ve always avoided it. I was attempting to fight the compulsion and now as a result because I didn’t move my hand, I feel like I have done something horrible. I feel so guilty. All because of a quick 5 second movement. I keep imagining me without my daughter, going to jail, her not having me, my family disowning me. I can’t handle the immense amount of emotional distress I am feeling because of this event. I keep feeling like I could’ve moved her in a different way, why did I have to move Her in the way that required my hand to be between her legs? Was it me trying to somehow act out on the intrusive thoughts I had previously? I am so torn apart by this. I would never ever intentionally hurt my baby. Ever. My biggest fear is her being abused. In an attempt to stand up to my ocd and desexualize that specific action, it has launched me into the worst ocd episode of my life.
This case has convinced me because of my ocd, I am unworthy of motherhood. I have harm ocd so how bad would my PP ocd be? It’s honestly my biggest fear to ever hurt someone it makes me sick to think about. I have been a wreck all night and just want to cry. My fiancé wants a child. So do I. But how do I tell him I don’t think I can do it now. My advice is not to get on Tik tok if this story triggers you bc it’s flooded with videos. I feel hopeless about this and it’s even triggered my harm ocd in general about anyone and anything right now. Ugh!!! Hugs to anyone else who is struggling. & to moms with OCD, I want you to know that you are warriors and my BIGGEST hope and inspiration. Maybe OCD will take motherhood from me, but maybe it won’t. I don’t know. I’m a mess and I feel like no one understands 🥹
i see so many stories of mothers going through postpartum psychosis and then harming their children and it scares me so bad to the point idk if i want to have kids. what if that happens to me when/if i have children? anyone else have this fear :(
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