I was wondering if it was normal to be having really good days to coming home from my first day at a new job to a panic attack and overwhelming thoughts. I just felt out of it after I left work and just broke down when I got home.
I got off the bathroom flour and decided made pancakes.
@Madison0405 That’s a great way to recover! Hope the pancakes were tasty!
I'm starting a new position soon and I can relate to those feelings of panic. I think that recovery can be a bit like a roller coaster. Sometimes I feel like I take two steps forward and 5 steps back. But I keep pushing forward because I know it's worth it. Getting caught up in sneaky compulsions gets me so I have to be mindful.
Yeah it hits me like a wave sometimes too. Sometimes it bubbles up, sometimes it whispers, sometimes it yells, and sometimes it’s like a tsunami.
Totally normal.
@QueenE1998 What do I do to help slow it down?
@Madison0405 Accepting it , accepting you will have good days and bad days and giving yourself grace . Sitting with those feelings and not letting them stop you keep living and going with them there
@QueenE1998 It almost just felt like this overwhelming feeling of failure because I was doing good with the exposures and feeling fine with very few intrusive thoughts then it just hit me like a wave.
@Madison0405 Trust me ! I’m 5 months in my mental breakdown with OCD , 2 months of feeling better and healed and still sometimes feel like a failure but I wake myself up, everyone has good and bad days , I just get up, dust myself off and keep going
Yes, I definitely experience this — having good days (or parts of days) and then having it really rough the next. Sometimes I find it helpful to look back at where I started before therapy and see how much I’ve learned and grown. It puts the ups and downs into perspective ❤️
Thank you all so much for the advice!! It helps so much to know what I’m going through is normal even if my mind tries to tell me or isn’t! ❤️
anybody else starting somewhere new in the next few days? school, work, etc? im starting at a new school and sweet baby jesus im nervous obviously im a little nervous about what people i’ll be meeting and what the next few weeks are gonna be like but mostly im afraid of being afraid, ugh! i think thats the essence of panic disorder, right? when i panic i feel like throwing up (never do, just feels like it) and so im afraid of the panic attacks because i feel sick (and i have a fear of vomiting) whenever i fear panicking, ive obviously already started the panicky reaction, duh! and then i worry about worrying myself into a panic attack! i could keep going! i just really want to have a good first day, man, just with the general amount of jitters everyone has. i dont think im the only one that feels like this hahahaha.
On my way home I had one of the worst panic attacks I’ve had in my entire life. I was driving Home from my peer support specialist class which is a bit far from me, my whole body was tingling, my heart beating really fast, and my whole body felt like it was going to give out and I would faint. I made it home thank God but I’m worried that these panic attacks will make it so I can’t do my job at work. I am going through a meditation change right now as I mentioned before. This has all been affecting me so much 😢
I spend a lot of my day just waiting for another panic attack to hit me. I live with anxiety about having more anxiety. Some days I do well and then I get tired from work or whatever and then it feels like my brain struggles to stay positive and have peace.
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