Deleted post.

Yes, it gets better the more you work on ERP and life changes until you rarely feel the guilt. And if you do, then you know how to reply—which is not replying to it.

I have, I don’t miss those days. But I can proudly say that I overcame it, all it took was some patience and faith in my progress. You can do it too <3

Yes working with ERP will change everything. Equally you have to work at not trying to figure out the answer/ problem solving/ruminating...... stopping these compulsions is key and yes it's hard but gets easier with practice and when you start to see results. Don't beat yourself up when you fail....just start again each time.

This is what makes me feel stuck I hate the thoughts so much I’d rather not be here then have them. Ocd is so cruel. It’s hard not to question the thoughts. Try not to engage with the thoughts and carry on living like normal don’t stop going out don’t stop going to work as it gives your mind something else to focus on and teaches your brain that the thoughts don’t mean anything. I know easier said than done but you can get through this

I would say, pray by all means, but I would be careful about rebuking the thoughts......do nothing with them, let them just be there. Telling ourselves they are not true or denying them, is engaging with them. Hard as it is not to question them, take a chance and a leap of faith to try a new way of dealing with them. I haven't heard of anyone that has stopped doing compulsions and used erp, over a good period of time that has not been very thankful they took that chance.