It’s near the tenth anniversary of when I saw my dad die, I can’t get the intrusive thoughts out of my head of him dying. Before today I was awake for 48 hours straight. God I just feel so exhausted.
I had the exact same intrusive thought about my dad too, I know exactly how you feel and man is it awful. Today that Intrusive thought no longer bothers me and hardly even pops up in my head now. Your dad was obviously someone significant to you! I used to also remind myself of the times my dad was happy and imagine that as well, but definitely easier said than done. Emdr has also helped me in the past with things related to trauma, maybe that is something to consider? I wish you the absolute best!
@Jennaffuur I’m glad you’ve been able to get to that point. Again I’m still new to this so hopefully as I work more towards my mental health goals I’ll be able to be more stable.
Have you looked into trauma therapy? You might very much benefit from it since that can be considered very traumatic and OCD plays off that.
@Nica I’d definitely be open to it. I just had my first session today so I’ll bring that up during my next one next week.
You are so loved by him. You are loved by all of us.
Hey, I’m so sorry your going through this. OCD is so unfair and it’s debilitating on its own I can’t imagine it being mixed with what you have lived through. I recommend you give magnesium a try. I have been taking it for 5 days now and my ocd thoughts have decreased drastically. I discovered giving magnesium a try off of a forum of women who had heightened intrusive thoughts with their cycles. Do some research on it but it wouldn’t hurt to take. Also really recommend getting trauma therapy. Maybe one that works with ocd as well. Life is so difficult and I really hope this helps and that things get better soon ❤️🩹
@ Skyline 🕊️ Thanks for your kind words, yeah I’m gonna bring up trauma therapy in my next session because my therapist said I might also have PTSD. And I’ll give magnesium a try thanks 🙏 hope you’re having a good day
I have intrusive thoughts about God. But sometimes it seems like I do think them myself. I don't agree with them. But it's like I get too exhausted to fight anymore, or when my mind calms down, I don't feel right without the thoughts so I think them myself and idk why. I'm pretty sure I'm going to hell.
I’m trying to let them pass not engage nothing , trying to compusle but the thoughts won’t leave. My brain keeps telling me I should stab my dad for not asking if I’m okay after the death of my ex …
Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well! I lost my dad yesterday and me having ocd since I was 7, it just skyrocketed. Yesterday it was difficult for sure, but I didn’t have any intrusive thoughts about self harm. It all happened suddenly when I was half asleep (trying to sleep even though it was really hard), were I feel as if a switch turned on in my brain and out of nowhere I started feeling angry. I recognised at that moment that I was not angry but that’s what my brain was telling me. And that’s when I had an intrusive thought of harming my mom came to my mind and immediately after that came the thought of harming myself. And it stuck. I know grief can make these themes pop up, but what if this is all real and not ocd? I’m scared. I acknowledge I don’t have thoughts in my head of planning to harm myself, it’s just a feeling that this is going to happen. Now letting my thoughts out brings me relief, even sometimes this intrusive thoughts bring me relief (that is very scary), but ocd makes me so pessimistic, and that I’m doomed in life and the sad life my dad had will also be mine as well. There are moments where I feel hope and relief, but it doesn’t last for long. As if I’m so so sure that this is going to happen. And me having magical thinking ocd doesn’t help either. Grief is hard, sometimes I cry, other times I laugh with my friends and family, but those moments I laugh is when I get terrified ( I read people who have made up the decision to (you know) are happy and laugh. Anyways, I’ve talked to my mom about it, she’s super supportive of me restarting therapy and even though she’s struggling with grief, she’s always there to listen to me and give me all the comfort I need. But I informed her about the thoughts the moment the popped up. Just so that she knows and can save me because I don’t trust myself at all. Sorry for this huge rumble, but I’d really appreciate your advice. I’m scared and so not ready to start therapy (at one hand I don’t want to, it feels such a chore, but I know I need to get help). I’m very pessimistic at the moment and I feel no one can convince me that I’ll get better. I think my future life, and it brings me this warm nice feeling and then it is followed by the thought that this will never happen. And because I have magical thinking ocd, and my uni exams have just started, I had this feeling that this exam season will be endless and it’s never going to end. Guess what, I’m probably going to just take one exam out of three (my mind is like you see, this thought and feeling came true) and that’s where I get super pessimistic. Okay, I’ll shut up for now, please give me some advice on how you try to manage your thoughts and what to do for now. Take care ❤️
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