New feeling?

Hey everyone I hope you’re doing great :). I wanted to ask you something, it happened yesterday me and my boyfriend were on facetime (we’re a long distance couple) and suddenly he kissed the screen w it made me so happy and I felt an excitement that I’ve never felt since the start of our long distance because of ocd (the last time that I felt like this was in december, when we saw each other). Anyway, I felt that it was weird, not bad weird just weird and I started crying because I’ve missed being this happy however it felt weird, is it normal that I felt like this because it’s new? This is stressing me out, is it a sign?

Username: GivenupGivenup

Date posted: 44w ago

It isnt a feeling you've had in a while it seems. Ocd leaves us in a constant state of sadness and anxiety, where any feeling of happiness is muted, or at an absolute minimum. Your feeling happy. And thats a beautiful feeling to have.

Username: Hi🫶Hi🫶

Date posted: 44w ago

@Givenup Thank you so much, this helped to see another side of it.

Username: gracepaynegracepayne

Date posted: 44w ago

Hey! Firstly, you’re so brave for speaking out on this. I have experienced a similar feeling and when you have been in such a state of sadness, anxiety, depression etc. for so long, these “weird” but happy moments feel so out of the ordinary! I described mine as some sort of eureka moment, it happened randomly whilst I was cuddling my boyfriend one time and all of a sudden I felt this burst of love and joy. I remember saying to myself this is probably going to pass and that’s okay, but wow do I feel great and I’m going to enjoy it while it lasts! This is completely normal and as great as it is to feel this way, we have to remember feelings pass and it’s important we consciously aren’t then always trying to chase those feelings, because that only leads to more obsessions. It’s beautiful you felt that though and it’s moment like these that give us hope on the bad days 🫶🏼

Username: Hi🫶Hi🫶

Date posted: 44w ago

@gracepayne Thank you so much for responding and for making me feel less lonely, I smiled while reading this 😊

Username: hannahflorence

Date posted: 3y ago

Me and my partner have been going out for a couple of montjs now, and there hasn't really been much physical contact, the odd brush hear and there. On our last date we went out and after a while he held my hand and later on he asked my permission to hug me. I said yes but I immediately felt scared and had an anxiety attack. I don't know whats wrong with me, when my friends and family hold my hand, touch me and hug me I feel fine but when he touches me I get so scared and freeze up. It might be because its my first proper relationship and these are my firsts (I'm 15 by the way). This is then triggering my soocd and telling me because I don't like being touched, I'm gay and the touched my girl best friend give me are more comfortable because I'm secretly gay. I like this guy a lot, and I am sure I'm not gay but my ocd is giving me so much rubbish for it. From what I can tell this isn't normal. I should feel comfy right? I'm sure with more touches and time I'd get more comfy. But I just wanted to let that out cuz it's been brewing inside of me for a while.

Username: oliviak2305

Date posted: 3y ago

Is this normal? I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 months and he makes me so happy and is the best boyfriend i’ve ever had. He literally worships the ground l walk however i can’t help but doubt my own feelings for him. I obsess over everything to do with him and it’s making me depressed. I keep asking my friends and mum if I love him when deep down i know i do it just feels stuck somewhere. I feel like i’m stuck in a bubble. Is this just relationship anxiety and ocd?

Relationship OCD

Username: oliviak2305

Date posted: 3y ago

Is this ROCD or not? I continuously keep having doubts about my feelings for my boyfriend. I’ve never had this before with my previous relationships and it’s really upsetting because this is the first boy that’s actually treating me like how i deserve. I feel like i’m in a bubble when it’s to do with him. I feel like i can’t emotionally get to him or connect to him. Whenever I think about him or see photos of him i get anxious and stuff. I know i want to be with him forever and i panic about it going wrong. I’m scared i’m going to end up giving in to the doubts and end it😞Whenever i think about the future it makes me anxious, it’s like i’m turning my emotions off. I keep crying after being intimate with him and i don’t know why, i’m panicking it’s because i’m losing feelings for him. I look at other couples and ask myself why am i not like them, why am i not in love like them. They make it look easy and it’s making me doubt everything. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 months and it’s amazing when i don’t have these horrendous doubts. He’s so patient with me and he loves me and worships the ground that I walk on yet and I still have these doubts. They came when our relationship started getting serious. I keep asking my friends and mum for reassurance if i love him and it’s making me so so sad. I feel like if i love him i shouldn’t be having these feelings. He’s not done anything wrong and i feel so guilty for it. Is this OCD or me? Plz help :(

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