debilitating health ocd

My main thought is that something really terrible is going to come out of this (can’t even type it but you can take an educated guess). Throughout the day i’m really good, but when these thoughts happen, I begin to cry, as if something terrible has been confirmed. I know acceptance is the best thing for OCD (has helped me tremendously in my recovery for multiple themes), but I feel as though I can’t accept something so tragic. Thinking about how my mum would feel if something had happened to me or leaving her, and so soon arguably (i’m 21). This is also affecting me going to the doctors. Ignorance is bliss for me right now. Before I had a habit of seeing doctors quite frequently as a compulsion, but now it’s quite the opposite. It’s reaching up to a year since i’ve had my last appointment and would love another checkup as most of my checkups are regular annual ones. I’m deficient in low folates and lead to my hair thinning tremendously and have read on the official NHS website that same deficiency could lead to something serious if left for too long over time, thus I have a regular prescription from doctors. This isn’t affecting me badly in my day to day really but the thoughts are constant, so much so I believe they are real, and honestly scared for those few moments per day, idk what to do for acceptance a opposed to other themes :(

Health Concern OCD

UH52

Date posted: 1y

Totally get it, like it’s really common to face issues using various coping strategies for various issues, some might work instantly in some cases and not on others! One way is to understand that “accepting” something doesn’t mean that it will happen in reality, it just means we are not letting that OCD’s irrational thoughts to throw us off balance, we are accepting the irrational thought and moving despite it and not signing in for an “real issue” to take place! OCD or such thoughts have no influence over the actually reality itself no matter how much it tells otherwise! Hope it helps a bit!!

dkdkdldkdjddjdj

Date posted: 1y

@UH52 This helps so much, thank you for your comment!! Often times with OCD, you’re stuck with black and white thinking in terms of acceptance, but I should really be accepting uncertainty in all realms

UH52

Date posted: 1y

@dkdkdldkdjddjdj You’re totally welcome :), so true, the issue with OCD itself is this, it’s blocks all our rational judgements and gives us an all or nothing situation! It shouldn’t always needed to be forcing ourselves to be ok or cool immediately, as it just works paradoxically, but knowing no matter what all happens, reality itself is pretty much uncertain for all, and being ok with it is not just for us with OCD, but anyone who lives in this planet need to cope with that, but for us having OCD on top is exactly what makes it so difficult!

OCDdontownme

Date posted: 1y

This is so relatable. I’ve struggled with this for so long. I not only have thoughts but sensations too and it is so scary. I hear the fear as I read this. I’m working on accepting them too. But it feels too much most of the time. I just have to keep trying. The only way out is through. You’re not alone! Health anxiety is its only tricky beast.

dkdkdldkdjddjdj

Date posted: 1y

@OCDdontownme It’s so debilitating, I know so many deal with this, but when it comes to tragedy (still can’t get myself to write it out, quite pathetic lol), it’s like I can’t begin to accept such a thing, but maybe accept uncertainty as a whole. We got this <3

OCDdontownme

Date posted: 1y

@dkdkdldkdjddjdj Yes I feel like I can accept uncertainty but not fully the tragic event if it were to happen and I think it’s what’s keeping me stuck. Working with a therapist to get there.

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd tips

so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd advice?

tomhyland

Date posted: 23w

disease obsessions

hello. i have been going through health scare obsessions for at least 5 years now and it terrifies me. i mainly fear of cancer. i have no reason to fear of cancer because it is not a predominant condition in my family. i have been to check ups for skin cancer and been told it was nothing which relieves me for a short period of time but then i start thinking of other cancer possibilities :( it doesn’t help that im a smoker to deal with the stress of adhd and ocd which just fuels the obsession of lung cancer. i know it would help my fear to stop smoking but thats easier said than done. i have only been a smoker for 3 years and its the only thing that helps right now. on top of this, my brain makes me believe that every intrusive thought i have WILL MANIFEST into existence just from thinking about it! this has scared me so much in the last 5 years and once i told my mum about it and she said "if you ever got cancer we would deal with it, its okay" but that didnt help it just made it worse and the possibility become more scarier! please help me.

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