I've been working hard on managing my thoughts all week. It feels like each day i got weaker and weaker. To the point where I had to do the obsession. This is a frustrating cycle. I'm having one of those days where I would rather die.
I think you would rather the pain end and it will if you get acclimated to the discomfort. It’s like jumping in a cold pool, but over time it doesn’t feel as cold. I’m that way you feel better. You need to stay.
I feel that. Been there. Remember this Baby J, you NEVER have to do the compulsion. You only did it because you wanted to. If you don't want to do it anymore, don't. OCD can NOT make you do anything you don't want to do. Harsh truth. Stay strong friend 🧡
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Ive had 3 good anxiety/OCD days in a row and now im really struggling. I am so tired of struggling and trying to battle my intrusive thoughts. I honestly just want to die. I feel like its easier than living with this. I remember my life before OCD. I remember being normal and i would give anything to be like that again, but i am so discouraged.
Today I just feel like I'm at my worst trying to beat the compulsions. It just really hurts, after I have made progress I still get this episodes where I start believing all the intrusive thoughts. It feels like I am carrying a mountain of nothingness, just problem solving without a problem, rumination all the time. I'm trying my best to stop the compulsion, but today I relapsed. I'll come back to do ERP when I'm feeling better. On top of all that I'm really fighting my porn addiction, it's a lot of weight, but I'm doing good so far.
Hi All, the intrusive thoughts have been really sticking today and I feel so tired of this constant battle. I've been doing ERP for a month but haven't noticed decrease in anxiety level yet. I'm afraid that I will give up the fight and end up committing suicide. I wish I could get a break and feel some relief.
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