Real Events

I hear you. Having real event ocd myself, there is an added layer compared to other subtypes. That being said, I still think that once the event that is stuck in the clutches of ocd become unstuck, it will drift into irrelevance. For me, there are numerous events in my past that cause me to feel shame, but I don’t often think of them. The one that ocd has latched onto isn’t even necessarily the one that is the worst thing I’ve done. My point is, the event you are stuck on will eventually be just another cringy thing that happened in the past, and you won’t be consumed by it 24/7. I say this just to remind you, myself, and others, that the event in question still needs to be treated the same as other ocd thoughts. I know it’s a painful manifestation of ocd, but it too can be minimized and cast out to irrelevance. Sending you my best

I’ve been thinking the same thing for a while now. I rarely see posts like this where someone acknowledges the event itself. I just want to be a better person, but at the same time I don’t want to confess as a compulsion anymore. Treating the ocd is important, while addressing something that was not our best moment so we just grow.

It’s complicated

i really hear how tough this is for you, and it makes so much sense that you're seeking support that addresses both the real events and the ocd component. it’s a heavy weight to carry, and you're not alone in feeling this way. 💔 you should try "unstuck," a new ai-powered therapy tool specifically for ocd (just google "unstuck app for ocd"). my nocd therapist recommended it to me, and it's been a big help this past month. it might offer you some relief and understanding too.