Everytime before I used to masturbate or when i have sex my compulsion is telling God that if anything crosses my mind he knows its not me so I ask for forgiveness in case intrusive thoughts pop in but even then I end up feeling so guilty when they do because I confuse the fact that I'm trying to ignore the thoughts coming at me with encouraging ?

God could be angry with you... or he could totally not be. You do not have a sure way of knowing. I think it’s important to know that OCD likes to narrow focus to one particular aspect of our life and apply a double standard. What if God is angry with us about intrusive thoughts during sexual activity—- what about thoughts when pooping, or cooking, or talking to our mom? Why is THIS time of day different? God could be angry for any number of reasons- that we didn’t go protest for human rights or that we eat meat or that sing poorly into the shower and he has to listen. Additionally, why would this facet of our lives be the ONE thing that would make us a “bad person” - wouldn’t God be able to develop more of a nuanced view of us than that? I think it’s worth examining the cognitive distortions at play here (Black and white thinking, mind reading, double standard, discounting the positive). This is not meant to minimize your faith in any way.

I understand.. I can’t even get to that point. I stopped masturbating because I felt disgusted that God is watching me do this. I also used to watch porn with masturbating but I felt this was a sure sin, it’s just way too much that God is watching me and knowing my thoughts. So I have stopped everything. How do we do exposure for this? I think your compulsion is to pray to God for forgiveness. Maybe resist the urge to pray? Idk, sorry i feel it’s so hard to know what exposures to do?!!

Thanks so much Philippians. I hope you continue to be intimate and feel love with your partner because you can:). I have the thoughts too last time I had sex that god was watching me and I just freaked out so much like, I could not relax and enjoy it. Since then... totally stopped everything. How do we expose this?! Or.. is it just accepting.. I am So glad you are here to understand and talk to

Philippians reach out to me do you have insta

Thank you. I just don’t feel any comfort or knowing what he can really do for me. I have to do it all myself. Also I don’t see having sex as a sin. God loves prostitutes in the bible Still no? I just can’t do it myself because god is watching me and I feel Disgusted by sexuality now. Anything at all. Even sexual lyrics or love lyrics I feel like I’m being disgusting. I’m glad you two feels so close to God. I am so far away

@Whitestar sex is not a sin only when it's under the covenant of marriage although many of us fail to obey that. Yes he loves all types of people regardless of their struggles. Perhaps your sexual guilt isn't coming from ocd and instead morally? did you know it is when you feel the furthest away from God that He is the closest to you? Seek Him and ask Him for help. "If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me" Jeremiah 29:13

God is always there to comfort you. You are never alone "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 @Whitestar

@LaPink All hope comes from God. "And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee. " Psalms 39:7 thank you so much love ya too my sister in Christ! God bless you and Amen! ?❤

@LaPink God didnt give you ocd. "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them." Genesis 1:27 He never wanted to see us struggle with this. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 I know for a fact you do love God and feel close to him and so does @Whitestar I feel it. He never said life would be easy nor that we wouldn't have struggles or get sick from time to time but He did say he would be there to help us through it. He's waiting for us to have a little more faith in Him even the size of a mustard seed Matthew 17:20 and remember although we may feel like we aren't progressing don't get discouraged by it keep going "for we walk by faith not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7

Like before my ocd I wouldn’t have a problem with these things and I didn’t see a problem with anyone else doing it. I don’t think there is a problem with anyone else doing it, but for me the sheer anxiety I have around the fact God can see me and know my thoughts makes me feel so ashamed and embarrassed. I think it’s horrible that the church teach us to do not these things and that it is dirty and wrong. It’s just horrible :’(

Thank you so much! Finally somebody shedding some light on it. I am totally the black & white thinking.. how do you think I could start working on these things? I have so many subset these, it’s very overwhelming:(

I try not to masturbate anymore either. But what's the point if thoughts pop in even when I'm having sex ? sometimes my partner even asks if I'm ok because he catches me shaking my head in disgust( which is one of my compulsions) but if I don't do that I feel like I actually like what's going through my head. I know how you feel.

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@Whitestar as of now I am unclear on what we should do. I think we need God's guidance on this. He has made us free of all sin including sexual and regarding guilt. We shouldn't be so hard on ourselves although it's hard. But with God's strength anything is possible. I don't have Instagram ?

That'd be great I'll look into it! Thanks so much ? And yes im totally aware of sex before marriage being wrong I'm currently in that sin ? @LaPink

@LaPink I totally agree with all you're saying. Thank you for your kind words i really needed to hear that right now since I'm struggling with so much guilt. Its God's word that I try to stand on no matter how much ocd darkens my mind. We have the minds of Christ! He is the prince of peace! We need to decree and declare the peace that surpasses all understanding over minds and refill our strength tanks.